I went to the doctor yesterday and found out I may have uterus cancer. I'm so upset and scared, plus very very worried. I got to go in and get blood work done, and get a ultrasound. My doctor also wants to do a biopsy and I don't know anything about that. Will it hurt? Will I be awake or asleep? Is it like surgery? I have so many questions.
Anouther reason I'm worried and scared is because cancer runs in my family. My mom had cervix cancer long time ago and lucky for her they caught it in the 0-1 stage. My grandma & my aunt are both breast cancer surviviors.
I'm so upset cause I can't believe this is happing to me right now when my life is going good. My husband and I are getting closer each day as we have just overcomed his drug addiction and the domestic violence that was between us during that time as well. He has been clean and sober for almost 3yrs now.
My kids are in counseling and doing really good overcoming the past problems w/ dad. My oldest daughter is in cheerleading which has practice 3x a week and goes to competitons. My youngest son is just starting football practice this month. I'm going back to school and earning my high school diploma to better myself plus show my kids how important it is to stay in school. I have dreams and goals after I graduate.
Anyhow my point is that I have so much good things going on and our life is really turning around. I don't understand why this has to happen now. I want to live and see all four of my kids graduate from school, and see what kind of person they are going to be. I want to see grandchildren someday.
I'm not ready to die yet when I have so many goals and dreams to do w/ my life not only better for myself but for my kids and family. I've battled depression for so many years and I'm just now coming out of my shell and really enjoying life. I'm so afraid that this is going to set me back.
I believe in god but just don't understand him. All I can do is pray and hope everything will turn out fine but I'm afraid that too won't be enough.
