Jasmine's blog: "About me..."

Or maybe I've realised this a long time ago but it's just hit me today more than usual.

How goddamn lucky I have it.

That there are REALLY bad people in the world.

That there are people ho have suffered something I can't even begin to imagine, that there are people still suffering and that there will always be people suffering.

That there some TRULY ignorant, stupid, idiotic people in the world...people that are too far gone to be realise their stupidity and their bigotry.

That there are people who just disgust me beyond belief.

Today I've really have just realised what a complete and utter idiot that I myself can be.

I don't know if I'm just caught up in the moment or what, but all these things are true and it's time I finnaly acknowledged it.

I can't empathise with people who have suffered.

I can't really offer comforting words no matter how hard I try, so whenever someone tells me something...I don't know what to say but it doesn't mean I don't care, but everytime I say something I always get the voice in my head that says 'who the hell are you to say that to them?'.

I've not suffered.

Not had anyone close to me die, yet. I don't wish for that to happen but I know to expect it someday.

I don't really know what the point of this is.

I don't want you to tell me I'm not an idiot because sometimes I am.

I don't think I really need you to tell me anything, just for you to know that it's not that I don't care I just don't know what to do about it.

And lastly to thank you all, my eyes have been opened either directly from you people or from what you've told me.

It's not something I've enjoyed but it was about time it happened, I can't stay in that bubble forever because it really is just a lie fabricated by my family and the people that surround me.