Bright Blessings's blog: "UPDATES"

Just came from Deanne's funeral...I Couldn't get the image of her when she was here with all the parametics working on her, how she looked wen I did CPR, how I thought it was all my fault...... Like I did not do enough,or talked to her more , etc.I know it isn't true, just feels like that when the images come back to me.

I couldn't stop crying! Hayley got up in front,spoke from her heart,in front of so many strangers & With terrible stage fright(she was shaking wen she sat back down). I am so proud of her, Dee would be also.She said felt Dee's spirit was w/her sayin it's ok,I believe in u.She thought of Dee as her 2nd mommy!It's beautiful she felt that! Hayley also was brave to ask if she could have a couple of the yellow roses near the alter to take home

Everyone at the funeral all wrote a special personal message for Deanne on yellow balloons let them go. It was very sweet,unique,floating off into the sky..1 small pink one, to represent Dee's soaring spirit was also let go.It actually flew faster than the rest!

Dakota,1st thing he said when we arrived, was "where is Aydan"Dakota carried her ashes wen it was over..Still blank, tearing up, just a little,poor thing.
Her 2 oldest were there, she wasn't able to see them in sooo many yrs, never got to see her b4 her death, it was heartbreaking...(the girl did for 1 day a couple months back)

Please ,Universe, take her soul into you and take care of her,she is yours now,her spirit is with us tho her body is not.Thank you for bringing Deanne Green & Dakota into out lives to love and be loved by her awesome spirit!

THIS WAS WRITTEN SATURDAY NIGHT AFTER MY ORIGINAL LONG POST FOLLOWING THE FUNERAL.......IT TELLS A "SHORT" EXPLANATION OF THE STORY, WHAT HAPPENED....

this is very long, but is a better version of the whole story
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> she was having SERIOUS probs w/her life, I was helping her and her son out...He was staying here untill the plae they were staying & u at had elecricity,water, etc...so, she told the kids(ironically) that always say I LOVE U 2 sum1 u love b4 u leave anywhere and at night ,etc, they could die today, u want that to be the last thing they heard..My son also knows this he is her son's bf....
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> > Well, after a few drinks, she went to dye her hair, I heard mom yelling, come check on Deanne! Found her slumped over, I dragged her out the bathroom, no pulse, no breathing, started CPR right away.Ambulance got here in 2 minutes, or 3..They began to work hard on her,after 15 min of machinery working on her, they got a pulse, rushed her to the ER. She had to be revived 5 times(her heart stopped that many times)
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> > Finally after cooling her brain down, warming it up, continuous drugs and breathing machine..they said her brain was too damaged, her heart too, she would never respond or come out of that state she was in....She died at 11:10 that night (10-30-13)
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> > She was 40, as I am about to be this month, her son and I were gonna share a party she said..lol...she was so excited about Halloween, the party, my daughter's love for her, really moved her, my daughter called her 2nd mommy...(she's 18, but young in the mind)
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> > They cremated her yest., funeral was today, her son carried her ashes out ogf the Church as we all released balloons with personal messages to her on them...I hope he "forgives" my son one day..they r bff!I think he just wants to make new friends, start over for now, and since she was in our house, maybe hates that too...(my opinion)
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> > My daughter has taken this hard also..she got up to speak about Deanne at her funeral, even with terrible stage fright! She says she felt MS Dee telling her, that it is ok, go up, speak from your heart, I believe in you....I think that is so beautiful!
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> > Well, ok, there is the book of it, hope you dont' fall asleep reading it!Sorry so long,it does help to talk or even write it down