catching a train at like 9ish to bay shore tomorrow so i can photograph the parade and the game. Then i believe i'm hanging out with Kat and afterwards... i might just go back to FIT. Bay Shore pretty much- sucks... plus my parents barely like me being home anyway because they're paying for me to go to college and live there, not at home... so i dont really have incentive to go back- except there just isnt anything to do here! i barely have any friends at college and truthfully its only a small step above Bay Shore in the 'drama' scene... i cant stand it. im not sure exactly when everything in life started to suck- i feel like it was only the other day everyone was hanging out in dorm rooms and bullshitting with one another, discussing Dante' and telling secrets to complete strangers, eating dinner togeather every night and never spending a day by yourself.... too many things in my life keep changing, i truthfully hope they are all for the better... i'm actually bothered enough by things that mike suggested i go see a councelor- 18 years and now suddenly i need a councelor? i feel like i'm overreacting... i dont know whats wrong with me the last month, its like suddenly nothing matters to me any more. school, boys, photography, friends, they dont mean a thing to me- i dont want to do anything but sit in my room, sleep and go on the computer, talking to the only friends i really feel like i have- who are anywhere from 7 to 15 hours away.... what happend from august to now? where did things go wrong?
