Today was the day they were suppose to give me my insulin pump and today everything was suppose to change for the better,I was suppose to get my life back in order and I had some high hopes only for things to crumble.WHAT A CROCK OF SHIT!! I go to the dr despite the long drive it was a rough morning. I see dr. lee and we talk and he has my results and my 3 month test which averages out how high my levels are.. well a good level is 5 and under.. mine is 12.75 .. so he says i am totally resisiting my insulin.... so he says ok this is what we have to do.. you need to take 60 units of levimire in the am and night time... 2 shots more insulin.... 20 units before and after every meal.... ok 3 meals a day =6 shots plus the two.. 8.. if you have snack 2 more shots because i eat dinner normally early i have to eat something prior to taking my eve shotso that is 2more ... 10 shots total.. plus he put me on a medicine to do with some kidney... and in the process of trying to digest this he says once a day you will be put on u-500 which is a highly concentrated insulin... 10units is like 50 units of normal insulin... this is human insulin and well its some strong stuff. not to mention the vitamins and the chronium i am taking. just
call me pin cushion. did i mention before each meal i test my insulin then 20 min after i take my insulin i take it.. and if my levels are high i have to take extra insulin?? they want me to do this and then go for more tests then some classes, but they have to get my levels down before i get my pump. Like how much longer will I have to go thru this. Im really sick of taking shots and now I have to take more. My head feels like it is going to explode.. Ide like to thank all of you who sent me good luck wishes on ct,yahoo email etc. And pre-advance warn that I wont be my happy go lucky self because this is going to make me misreable. I wont be here bitching and complaining like most would, I will be on from time to time but not as often because one of the side effects of the tablets I am starting... is stomah and intestional problems, ranging from vomiting to the shits.... the fun stuff. so tell me when everything else fails what does one do. when they try so hard for it all to have hell break loose? what did i do to deserve this? I give my all. I try and help those who need it.. Im a good friend... mother.. etc. Im just so sick of this
... if it werent for my son
take care guys i will be in from time to time
jupie
