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Am I wrong?

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 13:28:03 -0800

Am I wrong for wanting something more?

Am I being selfish? I left a 5 bedroom house to my ex and I signed it over to him to come and move here to a 2 bedroom apartment. Did I better myself? The roof use to leak until I flipped and the owners son heard me. The basement has mold growing in it and the old neighbors use to let their animals down there instead of outside. They swept it up but never sanitized it. The basement has 20 years worth of old tennants belongings.. The owners mothers items.. and the basement leaks.. You can smell the mildew and mold. They redid the apartment down stairs and I went and looked when they werent there. The bathroom they gutted.. there was mold everywhere. They redid it really nice yet refuse to do anything upstairs. No updates.

So I was diagnosed with intestional cancer 2 weeks before christmas. And so I have to go for chemotherapy treatments. Walking up 2 flights of stairs. Is it wrong for me to want a bigger place for my children? A better place without mold?

I am depressed and misreable.. and its only getting worse. My husband tells me a house cant make a person..

Am I wrong for wanting more?

Are you kidding me!

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Thu, 21 Jul 2011 04:58:53 -0700

I normally dont blog about things like this but this really bothered me this morning.�

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Ok so I left the person who hurt me very badly 4years ago. And the reason I left, the abuse and the cheating. How I found out he was cheating from my son who was 7 at the time. When we left everything was left behind so we started new. We moved 200 miles from that rotten little town. �So the woman he was cheating on me with.. Low and behold I look in my "Who's checking me out" box.. and there she is. And on top of my screen I see a message �"ha ha I have your house". � �This dirty little home wrecker. �So I blocked her and then had to swamp my settings so I dont have her allow her friends to message me. �I just dont get how some people can be gold diggers and ruin other's lives. I dont care about the house or the physical items. I have a better life. What I care about was how my 7 year old seen things. Including her fat hairy dairyer because she has that hairy disease. �So that kinda torked my ass this morning that she sought me out just to see if I was online to say it.. �Well have at it sweetie because once a cheater always a cheater.�

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tell me cheater cheater where did you find that no good white trash hoe....�

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How do you say you are sorry.

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Tue, 12 Jul 2011 06:54:08 -0700

How do you explain to people when you leave without a word? How do you apology because you had no choice but to leave?�

I was here when Fubar first started. Back then it was Cherry Tap. I had alot of wonderful friends and people who were there for me. Some knew at the time I was with a horrible person. This horrible person abused me physically mentally and sexually. He tried to kill me more than once. To give an example he replaced my insulin with bleach. I noticed the smell when I was dispensing my medication into the syringe. �I found out what happened and why. It was over a insurance policy. �While working two jobs because this lazy fool wouldn't work, he beat my son who has autism. My son has nightmares still and he is in severe counseling. �I ended up going to a shelter and because he was related to some state police in the area they hid me. They had to. �I finally escaped far enough away and had to do alot of changes. �I couldn't contact anyone but immediate family. Which is where I moved to. �Im far from him and that is all that matters. But I didnt come back due to fear he would be on here and stalk me. Tho you can block people he had his ways. Fake accounts fake emails even with a name change he once found me and that process had to start all over. Justice is in the process to be served. But then how do you say you are sorry to the people you hurt and left behind? A million apologies I would give. And if I had been allowed to make all of the emails or even let them know I would have. However I wasn't permitted to. �For what it is worth Im sorry. I had to do what I had to do to ensure the safety for myself and my son.�

I did start a new life. I had another baby and she is 2 years old. I lost 60lbs and also had reconstructive surgery/ a breast reduction after I had my daughter. They took off 12lbs off of each of the girls due to the weight of them. I ran into a old school friend. Someone Ive known since 7th grade and we are getting married in less than a month.�

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I came back when I knew I was safe and things were ok for me. Im sorry �

~Jupie�

New life New Me

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Sat, 09 Jul 2011 13:45:55 -0700

New life New me, Im free to be myself. Im free to be me. I have been gone from fubar/cherrytap for over 2 1/2 years. I went thru a rough time and my ex wouldnt let me go. Finally I broke free of his evil talons and I can be me. I am happy. And living my life. I have had a transformation of changes in my life.�

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Not only the weight loss but my attitude in life has change. Im so happy and enjoying life. Leaving him set me free. �And I couldn't be happier.�

what would you do

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Sun, 15 Jun 2008 07:17:11 -0700

Well here is the short scoop on this... 12 years and 5 days from now my baby sister was born who i love to death... However today is my birthday... I am 30. so we are 12 years apart. We have different dads My mom has called me 5x today to tell me of the glorious birthday party she is throwing my sister.. yet today is my birthday and she hasnt even said happy birthday. now growing up after my sis was born and maybe its me maybe I have the single child syndrome but i kinda feel left out... my 16th birthday party my mom combined my birthday and hers.. and had barney come to my birthday.. it was on my day... had friends over and the cake had barney and said happy bday to both of us.. but then on my sisters actual day the 20th had another bday party for her. On my graduation of highschool she had combined my birthday graduation together but also added happy birthday to my sister on the cake... then 5 days later thru a HUGE party for my sister. ok so how would you feel? we are a week apart and shes called me as I mentioned 5 times today.. not saying hey how are you. Just gloating on this happy 18th party for my sister.... Is there something wrong with me am I missing the big picture? this went on until I basically moved out. well I dont know what to say what would you do?

Just life

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Mon, 18 Jun 2007 05:31:41 -0700

For a few months my life seemed to be going in a downward spiral. With many aspects in my life. My sugar being bad and then taking my state exam and not getting things the way they were suppose to be. Well things have quite fallen into place and normally it happens around may. Wonder why... hmm but anyway I got the state job and training starts Wed. Im soo happy. I just gotta find the paper work to see where and when and what all I need. But other then that everything seems to be going well. Not sure if Im gonna stay at my other job because the last two weeks my boss has been demanding. Time will tell. Lets see how things go in the next two days. That will determine weither I stay or not at Hpg

My horoscope

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Tue, 29 May 2007 11:08:55 -0700

Your brain doesn't know the meaning of the word 'break.' All this overtime is producing excellent results. Tackle any knotty issues, and you'll see solutions leaping to present themselves. You're filled with inspiration. wow how true this is... Ive put in alot of OT the last week workign the carnival. my ass also shrunk a little. *looks at it* Yep it did

Ever notice

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Tue, 29 May 2007 11:03:05 -0700

Ever notice if you dont put a name in your blog everyone wonders who its about... is it about me OMG OMG is it me! LOL this is a smart ass blog to be a BRAT saying if your name aint in it then dont worry about it. Unless you have a gulity conscience... then you need to deal with that yourself. Did you do something to me that I didnt notice? are you on my shit list? anyways the world doesnt revolve are you its me! ALL ME!! :P. And around my big fat.......... ................... toe (hmm could of said ass but didnt.. dont any of you dare go there you beaners.

what do you do?

noreply@fubar.com (Jupie) — Mon, 28 May 2007 13:41:31 -0700

When the world seems to be going 100mph faster than you. Things go for everyone else but you? What do you do when you have friends who are they only when they need something for themselves? But when it comes to you they are non-exsistant? What do you do when they ask the world of you but when it comes time to return a small favor they arent to be found or they just are too busy?? When you are there to listen to them but when it comes to you youre a big joke. You wanna know what happens? You end up not trusting. And thing is Im not a trusting person to begin with. And I have lost it all. Things have been boiling up for awhile so when I vent and lash out its from everything I havent said. The things I have said are nothing compared to what needs to be said. Anyways HAPPY MEMORIAL DAY EVERYONE! Get drunk and party. Everyone knows I will be smashed by the end of the night.