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I am a soone to be a 51 year old man who has been addicted to meth since i was 17. Today is my first day without the drug. I dont know how i will do trying to stay away from it. Ihave gotton rid of all the bad elements that surrond me and the drug. All the time i lost doing this drug for solong. there are years i cant recall. i have no memory of it or what i did. Today i enter a new life. I knew this was comming. I know i have to quit. the toxic evil in that drug holds you back from beening the real you. i have learned alot about what meth does to the body and howaddiction changes you as a person and how it not only hurts you but the people that love you. i have lost friends tothis drug . but yet i kept doing drugs to kill the pain. well it might have killed the pain then. but when reality comes knocking on your door such as it has mine. only then you realize that pain is still there and the only way you can work thru it is beening sober. i know i am going to face these pains in the comming days and weeks. and i am going to try it sober for th first time in my life. something told me that its tme for me to make a big change in my life and that i would have to rid the toxic from my life. i have let soo many people down. i have hurt soo many people over the years. i can only hope they will find it in their hearts to forgive me when i come to make me amends with them. I never thought i would end up like this. i was supposed to follow in my grandfathers steps and become a policeman that worked his way up past chief of police . my grandfather was in charg of several police departments. the cheifs of them departments would report to him. bBut when my grandfather deid. I took a different road. and ended up doing drugs.i cant turn back the pages of time. all i can do is write a new future. so with this been said. i am going to blog my progress in this new life. if you are reading this and want to hear how i am fighting the addiction. i am going to post it here and only here. becausesometimes i slam family members and they dont need to see what i say. and they have no idea who i am on here. IF YOU ARE READING THIS AND IF YOU HAVE A ADDICTION. GET HELP NOW BEFOR ITS TOO LATE THERES SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT LOVES YOU
