This morning, thanks to a special friend, my day was made better and I'm trying to keep a more positive attitude about the day. Little steps at a time. I still wake up in the middle of the night thinking he is there and feel the hurt when I relize he is not. Feel the abandonment all over again. So, each day I struggle with my anger toward him with all that I have lost and all that I had helped him and now it is as if "I" don't exist and didn't even mean as much as a friend to him. But I have to realize that HE is not my main concern. God and my kids are. He isn't going to help us survive so I must trust the Lord and know that somehow all will work out and God will help us with our needs and bless us. Lord, may you please have mercy on us today and grant me the ability to take care of all the things I need to get taken care of and help me to obtain a good job so that I may take care of MY family and help me to release my hurt and anger toward Rob. I turn these things over to you and pray you will hear my prayer. In Jesus' name....Amen
