Have you ever wished that something was one way but knew that it wouldn't change? I hate this site sometimes... My relationship has almost ended numerous times because of it. I try to be understanding and ignore the things I see... But I can't. Every time Julie allows a guy to take flirting past a certain point I get angry... Recently she got "married" to a guy on here that, if I ever see him I WILL let him know who is in charge. And to me, although she says it's a joke, that has gone WAAAAY too far. Because of this she almost sent me home because I won't let it go. It tears my heart up because to me it looks like he has no respect for our relationship and she doesn't seem to care that it feels like a slap in the face. I have issues with online "dating" because my last relationship finally ended because of this esact type of thing. I know Julie isn't my ex... And I know she loves me but it is something that I can't get out of my head. There are too many distractions on this site and I am not one of them because I can never be on here at the same time as her. Once I am I will be all over anyone that I think has gone too far! For now I am biding my time and hoping that I don't blow up and anger her to the point of kicking me out. I love her so much that it hurts just to know that there are people out there that she would choose over me.
I shouldn't be writing this blog because she and I have already gone over all this but this is for me to try and get my head right... This is how I do that... I usually do it on myspace but because it is about this site I figured I would do it here. In the end the only thing I know is that when I am on here full time there will be a rude awakening for anyone that I deem crossing the line... This Logan guy, if he isn't already gone will regret ever having talked to her... I will make his life in the lounge hell... I will mute him and eject him every chance I get...If my mods get taken then I will never shut up...If I get banned then I will make accounts to do it... Whatever I have to do I will do... Anger barely touches what I feel when I have been disrespected like he has done... Unfortunately this means that Julie will hear from me in some of these cases as well. Which of course means that we will have fights about this site again... Every time things seem to have calmed down something else comes up... Now I have to figure out how to handle the storm that will come from this blog. Oh well like I said this is me figuring things out. I will have to deal with it...
And now I am off to bed... It's too damn late in the morning to still be up... And I have to put sheets on the bed...grrrrr...
