I was up late last night thinking about and crying about something someone close to me had said. This morning I realized that they probably never even gave that a second thought after saying it because that is just them and the way that they are. They like to play by trying to get me upset or just teasing me but they probably didn't know that what they said hurt and made me doubt a lot of feelings I have started to have.
Then I also realized that why should something that someone says upset me because letting it upset me or letting myself cry over it doesn't change anything it just take precious minutes or hours of my happiness away and I should never let anyone take my happiness away for any reason. I do not need to let things bother me. If I want something I need to go for it and not let anything or anyone stand in my way.
People come in and out of your life all the time Life is too short to let any of them take from you without leaving something good behind. Even if all they leave is a good memory or another way of looking at things that was better then the views you had prior to them.
I like something I have heard recently "Don't live beyond the moment or over think things because it could be gone at any moment and letting things upset you takes away from the good things that could have happened while you are upset" Think about it nothing is promised to be forever we all want the one person that will be there for us and with us forever but that is the thing there may only be that one person if you go through life trying to find love and don't just live it is a waste. Enjoy the time you have with each person so that you at least have that plus what you may end up doing is spending that time with that person you are meant to be with.
So in closing I have decided not to let things bother me and just suck it up men don't realize that we are emotional creatures unlike most of them who think with their pride or peckers not letting feelings in for any reason. Yet if we are to be like them we are just stuck up or sluts whatever words they choose to use for us at that time so I will no longer let someone see me cry or make me cry. Which is actually pretty sad that I have to take away a part of me so that I can't get hurt anymore I may have to think about this.
I do love my man more than anything though and it is scary cause that means he is capable of hurting me the most I guess we will see how it ends up right.
I LOVE YOU SEXY!!!
