Did you hear that??? OMG I think hell just FROZE OVER!
I am content!! Emotionally stable even! Ok maybe hell didn't freeze over but I am sure traffic stopped momentarily when I realize I am in the best place emotionally as I have been in years. And its a nice feeling. I mean sure I have my moments, and yes my bed is big and empty, but I don't have that constant feeling of loneliness that I usually do. That's the feeling that feeds the voice of that little person that says "you need a man". Emotionally I am perfect. I am not heart broke, or hurt, or lonely even. I am happy just where I am. Which is funny cause I thought it'd take a little longer then it has. But I have soo much going on in my life now that maybe it helped me resolve me issues sooner so I can move on or it was just time.
I do know that a lot of my calmness has to with me meeting new people and chatting. I have met some VERY cool people over the last few weeks and have built some great friendships at the least. I think refreshing your friends list and just getting new outlooks and prospectives on things helps you grow. I know I have met someone in particular that makes me laugh and we have an instant connection. Its nice to feel that there are people you can still connect with. I just feel like my life is full of great people, great friends and an amazing little boy, at this point I can't ask for much more.
And I am soo looking forward to meeting all my new friends. And its nice to know that I now have lots of places to visit when I need to go somewhere. California seems to be a popular spot it, hehe.. So after the new year and my life settles we'll see where I end up first or who comes to see me.
