So I had a mini ephipany yesterday or was it the day before? Actually I think it was a day long ephipany.
I realized that I am all upset and heartbroken over someone that isn't worth it. I gave someone my love, my life and my home and got nothing in return but a broken heart. And you know what thats ok.. cause thats life. But to STILL be upset when he doesn't talk to me or give me attention?
IT'S STUPID!!! I really shouldn't care and I realize now, and even more so sitting here writing this that I DON'T! Of course I will always love him but I shouldn't still care past that. And I am not going to.
He is a good guy deep down, but he has got a LOT of things to figure out and I realize that he and I aren't on the same page in life and I want to move on to a new chapter. I am not faulting him for being him or even the fact he's got some things to figure out. My point is I am no longer going to care. I want him to be happy and thats it.
So I wash my hands of this and move on! Oh I am getting rid of the other people in my life that make me feel used and are good for nothing. I have responsibilites I have to focus on and don't need those negative thoughts and feelings around me.
