ok so the day started out amazingly well and went downhill quick. as much as i think i can take a person at face value it comes back to kick me in the teeth. is it too much trouble to actually find someone or should i say a male that can provide things a woman needs other than sex? for some reason a lot of men think, hey i like this woman, shes sweet not so bad lookin, let me hook up with her and see what happens? and then it happens, 2 weeks of giddy looks and great sex, turn into 3 months of hi im home how was your night? let me start the shower for you and rub your back turns into 6 months of, honey you know weve been together for awhile and maybe its time to take the next step, lets get married. thats when you start hearing "what am i gonna do on my last night of being a free man" then it becomes, honey ive had a rough day i just dont feel like doimg anything. thats it, it all starts going down hill. you have so much fun together and you want it to last forever and for the first couple of years it does seem like that. then you start thinking, what would he do if i were pregnant? all the thoughts go through your head. if i do this i will never have these moments back again. then comes the day you go to the doctor because your joints ache and they come back in and say congratulations your pregnant. instant tears come. oh my god what will his reaction be, maybe ill pull one of those sens from a hollywood movie when the wife tells her husband and they live the most incredible next 9 months. hollywood doesnt show you how you end up with diabetes and become what the doctors say is a "high risk" pregnancy. then you feel so sick for the next few months you feel terrible. then after about the five month mark you absolutley feel 100% like a woman. you start to feel better about your body, sex is incredible and your husband doesnt mind the fact that you are like a sex maniac. the baby comes, mommy cries, daddy sheds a tear, the doctors and nurses all cheer, you hear congratulations guys its a boy. and after the newness wears off and the sleeplessness gets worse, you start fighting over little things. maybe the baby wasnt a good idea, maybe things now are worse, what should i do...
