ok so this is day 2 of this blog. as i layed in my bed most of the day it dawned on me that i still have a life to lead, a mothers life. as much as i would love to hang it all up and beg my abusive ex to take me back i have 2 more men in my life and they are more important than anything else in this world, my boys. i was so sad today i couldn't even get up to take him to school and then i got mad, why should i be the only one responsible for this? it was by no means immaculate conception. when i found out i was pregnant i thought everything was perfect, no morning sickness, i even lost weight. i did everything my doc said. because i was considered high risk i had visits 2-4 times a week. everything was great except hubby was coming home with a six pack everynight. when i went into the local convienince store the guy at the desk would always ask about how hubby was the next morning. of course i over looked it, i loved him and thought it was normal him just blowing off steam after work. the next morning was a nightmare i couldn't get him up before 10am. after chris was born he was great. the drinking slowed down for a few weeks and because of my c-section he actually became a dad. but two weeks later at my docs appt things changed the blog continues tomorrow
