So, my mom calls me Tuesday to let me know something funny. D.J. got bailed out for 700dollars by...... can you guess?.... Jeanie motherfucking tramp ass Clifford. The same bitch he has been lying to me about fucking since i was pregnant with his daughter. The same used up whore whom he said he only fucked because he was on meth at the time. the same bitch he had to go get a DNA test over . Yea,.. he almost fathered her son. The same whore who will be knocked up with his kid asap,.. i would put money on it that she is knocked up before the ink is dry on the divorce papers... which haven't even been drawn up yet.
No mom, i didn't laugh
No mom, I don't think it is humorous in any way shape or form.
Sorry mom,... but i am still crazy in love with a man who treats/ed me like dog-shit stuck on his shoe.
I haven't slept in a stretch of longer than 2 hours since the last night i saw him. The night i asked him to leave. I cant stand the smell of most food, let alone choke down much more than 1 meal a day.
I was feeling weak, and sorry for him. I was clinging to the words he said that night. "If this is the last time i hear your voice ,.... it was worth it. I love you."
I was on my way to a pawn broker to hock my wedding rings(passed down from my grandma) to get him out. I was seriously considering taking him home, to our home.
And i found out,... he moved on. He used his 1 phone call to call her? He asked his mom to call her?
What was that you said, you love me and you cant live with out me.
Less than 36 hours later you move in with another woman?
Women like me are the reason men get away with abuse in all and any of its forms. Why cops say whatever they think we want to hear while on sight of the call, then go back to the station and tell a different tale in their police report. We are the reason they laugh in our faces when we are pleading for help. We are the reason that a restraining order isn't worth the paper its written on. We are the reason Maury, Jerry and Steve Wilkos have jobs.
We are the ones who are to stupid to see the forest for the trees.
Of course we,.. is me.
I am the reason for my own unhappiness. I am the reason if the unthinkable should happen.
Its all me.
I don't want your pity.
I don't want your lies.
I want my husband back, and to love me like he claimed. I want to put my family back together again. I want to make it right. I dont want to be a quitter.
I
AM
AN
IDIOT!!!
