You tell false words, you speak lies, and you are full of deciet. You see that it hurts but you still do it because you can. You look at me with a blank expression and dont know why, and you never have. You just stand there as confused as I am.
Yes, what goes around comes around but im not that type baby. Everyday I hurt becuase of what came my way, but I keep prayin that you will help make it dissapear.
I am not your mother and ill never be her so take
those shades off your eyes and see the real me in the flesh. Im not your ex or you peace of pussy, Im not the girl at work and im not the one on the corner. I am the woman in your bed, the woman in your kitchen, the woman in your heart and I am strong.
There is never an explination and I have accepted that because I had no other choice, or maybe I just choose to hurt myself through you. Maybe im that blind to think you have changed overnight, maybe u are after other things, and u just look me in the eyes and say its different.
I have always been ready for your love, but im still searching. This game of hide and seek is running quickly on my soul. I understand what love brings and I accept the time it takes, but then again if your not ready now you never will be because there is nothing else I can give you, you have it all. You want it one day and then take it the next.
I have been giving you the chance of a life time but you just decide to keep walking on by, maybe decide to spend a night or two and then move on. You accept when its convienient to you, you are selfish because baby I need from you too.
Whatever happened to both giving 100%? You want one second and then dont the next because you are selfish. Do you have your eyes pointed in a different direction ?
I have offered the best of myself, I have sacrificed so much for this love of mine, the man in my bed, this man in me.
I know its not easy baby, because tears just happen in this love.
I view u as a pearl that shines when we complete each other, I never needed anything else in my life. I am thankful for everything you have taught me and the beautiful woman I have blossomed into has been touched with your hand and in the mirrior I see this heart that has been changed forever.
I just dont know what will happen tomorrow, baby will you be here like you say, baby will you still be beside me holding me. Will my security be disruppted will I be alone, will I loose it all... I just dont know baby because you dont know and do u care, do u really hurt like u say u do ?
What you want and think are secrets, do I even know the man I lay next to, maybe I know him so well that he is a stranger, I will never know anything that isn't told or shown to me. I "just know" because It changes on a daily basis... what will it be tomorrow ? Are u someone else, do you have other intentions that I dont know of, what do you want with me and...
Why do tears just happen in this relationship ?
Baby why would u want me to have tears ?
Why do I feel like the walls are getting small, and why is it that the one person I love the most is pushing on them... I want to know and see, I want the intangable and I want a man who sees me as the woman I am and not some imagined figure that has him hurting me.... I am not that, and I cannot keep being that to you because it is not me baby.
I want the best for us, and I want the world but It just seems like you keep taking pieces from that world we have created togeather... I want a man who will always be with me in mind body and soul... I want a good daddy for his babies, and strong man for this wife, that I can lean on when there is nothing left to lean on. I know we dont always see the same, but all I want is a true love that will never end and is stronger then anything we may face. Walking hand in hand not separated into this harsh world. We will never make it if we keep letting it divide us.
I dont want to accept that in this relationship tears just happen.. I dont want to accept second best for us baby... does that mean Im going to loose you ? Does that mean that 2 years from now ill still wake up in your arms, or with some other man that will be all those things to me and our beautiful babies...
Maybe I wont accept that tears just happen, because why would you want them to ??? So again, what will u do... these secrets in your deepest soul, the truth that I have been looking for since the beginning... what will you do next... or what will u push me to do, or have I already done it ?
Because Im tired of 'Tears just happening'.
