As I paint my eyes
I cover their swollen lids
The colors black and green
Black because if reminds me of the darkness
And Green because I hold onto hope
Its color hides the redness.
This is my mask
This is my cover up
I paint my eyes because I want to hide
The gripping of my heart
The sadness in my soul
Your reflection in my pupils,
as I look up it stains me
Glancing in the mirror,
the reflection still there
How could there be so much selfishness
Those feelings,
the pictures of you looking back at me
The tears again, I blink them away
I reach for my paint again,
As I pick the colors I look up
Glancing at my reflection,
only to see you.
