r THE ADORKABLE ONE's blog: "TATER IS SICK"

OK YALL, HERE'S THE DEAL.   IM ALMOST 4 WEEKS OUTTA SURGERY.  IM HEALING BUT ITS GOING TO TAKE A FEW MORE WEEKS BEFORE THE SWELLING IS ALL GONE AND I CAN MOVE AROUND NORMALLY AGAIN.  THE MENTAL PART IS WHAT IS HANGING ME UP.  I HAD STARTED BELIEVING I HAD LOST MY MIND.  I AM MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY DRAINED.  ALL I WANT TO DO IS SLEEP.  I HAVE HAD SO MANY THINGS GOING WRONG THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS.  HAIR STARTED FALLING OUT AGAIN, GAINING WEIGHT, HOT ONE MINUTE COLD THE NEXT, BAD MOOD SWINGS, BREAKING OUT IN HIVES, FEVERS, SWEATS, MIGRAINES, INSOMNIA AND THE LIST GOES ON AND ON.  I TRULY THOUGHT I WAS LOSING MY MIND!  GOOD NEWS FROM THE DOCTOR TODAY THOUGH, I AM CLINICALLY PSYCHOTIC AND COULD KILL SOMEONE AND GET AWAY WITH IT!  (HMMMM LOOKS AROUND FOR MY NEXT VICTIM-OOPS I MEAN FIRST VICTIM) THE SURGEON TOLD ME TO CONTINUE TAKING ALL THE DRUGS I WAS ON TILL I WENT BACK TO ENDOCRINOLOGIST.  ENDO. DR SAID HE WAS WAY WRONG.  THE MEDS I WAS ON WERE TO SURPRESS THE THYROID FROM OVER FUNCTIONING.  WELL HALF THE THYROID IS GONE NOW AND I NEEDED THE OTHER HALF TO START WORKING.  MY LEVELS CAME BACK OFF THE CHART. HORMONES AND EVERYTHING WERE SKY HIGH OR BOTTOMED OUT LOW.  SO ME BEING CRAZY IS COMPLETLY NORMAL FOR THE CHEMICAL LEVELS IN MY BODY.  HE HAS TAKEN ME OFF ALL THE MEDS NOW TO TRY TO SEE IF THE THYROID WOULD START WORKING AND MAYBE I WOULDNT BE SO CRAZY! :D  YAY!!  THEY DID FIND CANCER IN THE PART OF THE THYROID THEY REMOVED.  :( THE DOCTOR HAD THE PATHOLOGY REPORTS BACK TODAY AND ITS GOOD NEWS.  ALL THE CANCER WAS REMOVED WITH THE PART OF THE THYROID THAT WAS REMOVED.  THEY ARE GOING TO RESCAN THE THYROID IN A FEW MONTHS TO CHECK AGAIN TO MAKE SURE THERE IS NOTHING ELSE TO WORRY ABOUT, BUT RIGHT NOW IT ALL LOOKS GOOD.  YAY!! 

SUMMARY: IM CRAZY FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DIDNT ALREADY KNOW! IM HEALING AND WILL BE BETTER IN TIME. I CAN KILL SOMEONE AND GET AWAY WITH IT. (WATCH OUT) CANCER WAS ALL REMOVED. IM SLEEPY AND ON THAT NOTE, I SHALL RETIRE TO MY BED!!  LOL  THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT.  YOU GUYS ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU FOR IT!!! 

 HEY GUYS!! HOLY HELL IM ALIVE!! LOL IM VERY MEDICATED AND VERY SORE, BUT ALIVE. FIRST THINGS FIRST, I WANT TO THANK YOU ALL. YALL HAVE BEEN SO WONDERFUL TO ME. ALL THE PRAYERS WELL WISHES AND SPECIAL GAURDIAN ANGELS SENT WITH ME HAVE ALL BEEN APRRECIATED. I HAVE A VERY SMALL FAMILY AND NO FRIENDS CLOSE BY. EVERY ONE IS IN GA. SO TO HAVE ALL YALL SHOW ME LOVE AND KNOW THAT EVEN AS AN ONLINE FRIEND THAT YALL CARE AND WORRY MEANS MORE TO ME THAN YOU KNOW.
  OK, THE SURGERY WENT GREAT. WELL THATS THE DOCTORS OPINION! LOL I THINK IT HURT LIKE HELL AND SUCKED!! :D HE WAS ABLE TO REMOVE ONLY THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE THYROID. THE LEFT SIDE WAS LEFT UNTOUCHED AND SHOULD BEGIN FUNCTIONING ON ITS OWN IN TIME. THE TUMOR WAS SO LARGE THAT IT HAD GROWN OUTTA MY VOCAL CORDS AND THEY NEVER HAD TO CUT AROUND THEM. YAY!!! SO IM TALKING. MY THROAT IS VERY SORE AND SCRATCHY. I HAVE 3 LAYERS OF STITCHES INSIDE AND ONE ON THE OUTSIDE. THEY LET ME COME HOME A DAY OR TWO EARLY, AS LONG AS I STAY QUIET AND OFF MY FEET FOR AWHILE. THEY REMOVED THE DRAINAGE TUBE AND BREATHING TUBE... WOW!! TALK ABOUT PAIN!! I HAD TWO IVS RUNNING SO MY HANDS ARE SWOLLEN AND BLUE NOW, AND WITH ALL THE IMMENSE LOVE I HAVE FOR NEEDLES YOU CAN IMAGINE HOW MUCH FUN THAT WAS! I STARTED CALLING THE NURSES MY LIL VAMPIRES. THEY CAME IN TO TAKE BLOOD EVERY HOUR I THINK. GRRRRR
  SO TO SUM IT UP. IM HOME!! IM ON THE MEND. IM ONLY ON THE HEART AND THYROID MEDICINE RIGHT NOW. AND LOTS OF LOTS OF PAIN KILLERS!!! LOL THANK GOD FOR PAIN KILLERS. ON THEM NOW!!! LALALALA AHHHHH LOOK AT THE BIRDIE!!!  
  I WILL BE HERE OFF AND ON FOR AWHILE, AS I SLEEP MOST OF THE TIME RIGHT NOW. PLEASE CHECK MY "ME AND MY THYROID" ALBUM FOR NEW PICS AND UPDATES. I TRY TO LEAVE COMPUTER ON AND CHECK MESSAGES AS I CAN. IF I HAVENT GOTTEN BACK TO YOU I WILL. JUST BEAR WITH ME AND BE PATIENT. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!!!

IT'S ME AGAIN.  JUST WANTED TO LET YOU ALL KNOW THE LATEST NEWS. I KNOW IM ONLY HERE FROM TIME TO TIME NOW, AND I DO TRY TO GET BACK TO EVERYONE.  BUT IN ALL HONESTY, IM JUST WORE OUT.  I DONT KNOW HOW MUCH FIGHT I HAVE LEFT IN ME.

AFTER MEETING WITH THE SURGEON 2 WEEKS AGO, HE WANTED TO DO THE SURGERY THAT WEEK.  THAT WAS NOT AN OPTION FOR ME.  CIERRA TURNS 5 TOMORROW, AND HER BIRTHDAY PARTY IS ON SUNDAY.  SHE STARTS SCHOOL ON THE 7TH AND I NEED TO GET HER INTO SOME KIND OF ROUTINE SO MY MOM OR WHO EVER CAN GET HER IN SCHOOL AND WHAT NOT WHILE IM IN THE HOSPITAL.  MY PARENTS ARE GONE AND IM TAKING CARE OF 50 DOGS AT MY MOMS KENNEL AND EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO KEEP BUILDING. SO I PUT IT OFF TILL THE 2OTH OF AUGUST.  

I HAVE TO ADMIT IM TERRIFIED AND IF I HAD A CHOICE I WOULD LEAVE THE LUMP IN MY THROAT AND GO ON ABOUT MY LIFE. BUT NOW THAT ITS SHUTTIN DOWN OTHER THINGS IN MY BODY AND IS BLOCKING MY AIRWAY I DONT HAVE THAT OPTION ANYMORE.  HE IS SAYING I WILL BE IN THE HOSPITAL A FEW DAYS BECAUSE OF THE BREATHING TUBE THEY HAVE TO PUT IN BECAUSE OF THE SWELLING AROUND THE AIRWAY AND HOW DELICATE THIS SURGERY IS.  THE THOUGHT OF A TUBE DOWN MY THROAT IS MORE THAN I CAN EVEN THINK ABOUT WITHOUT PANICING.

IM SITTING HERE ALONE ON THE COUCH BALLING MY EYES OUT AND I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY. AFTER THE LAST TRIP TO THE HOSPITAL I WOUND UP WITH PNEUMONIA.  I HAVE BEEN BATTLING THAT AND ON A BREATHING MACHINE.   MY HORMONES ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE AND THEY SAY THATS FROM THE GLANDS OVER PRODUCING AND UNDER PRODUCING AND BLAH BLAH...  I SIT AND CRY MOST OF THE DAY AND THEN PUT ON A SMILE TO BE MOM WHEN CIERRA IS HERE, AND BLESS HER LIL HEART SHE KNOWS MOM ISNT WELL AND SHE COMES AND PATS ME ON THE BACK AND SAYS BREATHE MOMMY WHEN I START COUGHING.  I CANT IMAGINE LEAVING HER AND GOING INTO THE HOSPITAL AND KNOWING THE WORST COULD HAPPEN, AND WHAT IF I DONT COME HOME... SHE IS MY WORLD.

ANYWAY IM RAMBLING ON.  IM GOING TO BE HERE FROM TIME TO TIME WHEN I HAVE GOOD DAYS.  IF I MISS SOMEONE OR DONT GET BACK QUICK AND YOU SEE SOME CRAZY BITCH STATUS MESSAGE, JUST OVERLOOK ME I NEED TO TAKE MORE XANAX!!  LOL PLEASE JUST BEAR WITH ME... I HAVE FLOWN OFF THE HANDLE WITH PEOPLE I LOVE AND HAVE SAID THINGS TO FRIENDS I WOULD NEVER SAY... IM JUST NOT ME RIGHT NOW.  I HOPE THAT AFTER ALL OF THIS IS OVER, MISTY, THE REAL ME WILL COME BACK.  I KINDA LIKE HER. SHE AINT ALL THAT BAD.  I LOVE YOU GUYS.  WHEN I GO IN I WILL TRY TO GET WORD TO YALL FROM SOMEONE AS TO HOW IM DOING.

XOXOX

TATERBABY 

HEY GUYS... PARDON THE SPELLING OR ANY TYPE-O'S BUT IM PRETTY STRUNG OUT ON MEDS RIGHT NOW...  SO MANY PEOPLE KEEP ASKING WHATS GOING ON SO HERE IS THE JUST OF IT...  I SAW THE ENDOCRINOLOGIST ON MONDAY.  IM BLACK AND BLUE AND RESEMBLE A LARGE PIN CUSHION!  ATLEAST THIS GUY HAD A CLUE UNLIKE THE OTHER QUACKS IVE SEEN.  AFTER MUCH BLOOD NEEDLES AND ULTRASOUNDS, THE VERDICT IS SURGERY ASAP.  THE MASS IS THE SIZE OF A FIST.  ITS THE RIGHT SIDE ONLY.  NO PART OF THE THYROID IS WORKING RIGHT NOW.  HE SCHEDULED ME TO MEET WITH THE SURGEON ON THE 17TH.  HIS HOPES ARE THEY CAN REMOVE THE RIGHT SIDE AND WITH DRUG THERAPY THE LEFT SIDE WILL KICK IN.  UNFORTUNITLY AFTER EXAMING IT THE TUMOR IS NOT SMOOTH.  THERE ARE NODS AND PART OF IT IS SOLID AND PART LIQUID.  HE IS NOT SENDING ME FOR ANOTHER BIOPSY.  HE THINKS THAT ONCE THE SURGEON IS IN THERE HE WILL NO RIGHT AWAY IF ITS CANCER OR NOT.  IF IT IS THEY WILL GO AHEAD AND REMOVE BOTH SIDES... WE ARE HOPING FROM THE LOOKS OF THINGS THAT IS ATTACHED TO MY VOCAL CORDS, ONLY WRAPPED AROUND IT.  IF THAT IS THE CASE, THEN I SHOULD BE OK... HE SAYS TO PLAN ON BEING DOWN FOR SOME TIME AND NOT ABLE TO TALK FOR ABIT.  RIGHT NOW IM HAVING A ROUGH TIME WRAPPING MY BRAIN AROUND ALL THIS AND JUST TRYING TO DEAL WITH EVERYTHING.  IF IT TAKES AWHILE TO GET BACK TO YALL, PLEASE UNDERSTAND I HAVE A LOT OF MY PLATE RIGHT NOW.  I LOVE YOU ALL AND THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND FRIENDSHIP.  JUST KINDA OVERLOOK ME FOR A BIT TILL I CAN GET A GRIP ON THIS AND MY SHIT AS A WHOLE!!  LOL  ILL BE ON AND OFF... LEAVE ME LOVE AND I PROMISE I WILL GET BACK TO YOU AS I CAN!!

HUGS AND KISSES

TATER

********NOTE!!!! IM SEVERELY MEDICATED AND A LIL DISORIENTED SO TRY TO FOLLOW ALONG CAREFULLY AND READ BETWEEN THE LINES WHEN NECCESARY!!!********  

  HELLO MY FRIENDS! LET ME START BY SAYING THIS. FOR THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF ON FUBAR I HAVE MET SOME AMAZING PEOPLE AND LOOK FORWARD TO THE TIMES ON HERE TO TALK TO YA’LL AND CATCH UP AND BULLSHIT. I KNOW MOST OF YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN SICK AND I HAVE BEEN VAGUE ABOUT IT. NOT REALLY KNOWING WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME OR HOW TO EXPLAIN, I HAVE JUST BEEN TRYING TO SURVIVE AND TAKE CARE OF MY LIL GIRL.
  TODAY WAS ANOTHER DAY SPENT WITH DOCTORS AND AT HOSPITALS. DID I EVER TELL YOU I HAVE "TRYPANOPHOBIA" A SEVER PHOBIA OF NEEDLES? SO THIS DOUBLES THE SUCK FACTOR OF ALL THAT IS GOING ON!! THE PEOPLE WHO WENT TO MEDICAL SCHOOL FOR 9 YRS BEST SOLUTION IS WE NEED TO GIVE HER A SHOT TO CALM HER DOWN SO WE CAN DO THE TEST!!! WELL FUCKHEAD "HERES YOUR SIGN"!!! THATS WHY I’M UPSET TO BEGIN WITH SO TO CALM ME DOWN TELL ME I’M GOING TO GIVE YOU A SHOT TO CALM YOU DOWN!! OMG WHERE DO THEY FIND THESE PEOPLE??
  SO BASICALLY IT ALL BOILS DOWN TO THIS. I HAVE HYPERTHYROIDISM. THEY HAVE FOUND A LARGE MASS IN MY THROAT THAT NEEDS TO BE REMOVED ASAP. BUT FIRST I HAVE TO HAVE ANOTHER BIOPSY TO CHECK FOR CANCER AGAIN. ONCE AGAIN HAVING A VERY LARGE NEEDLE COMING AT MY FACE AGAIN TO DO THIS IS TRAMATIC IN ITSELF, BUT THE LAST MONTH HAS TAKEN ITS TOLL ON MY BODY. THE MEDICAL "PROFESSIONALS" HAHAHAHA DON'T SEEM TO BE ABLE TO GET THE DRUGS RIGHT. THE THYROID CONDITIONS CAUSE MY HEART TO RACE DANGEROUSLY, BLOOD PRESSURE TO SKY ROCKET, MASSIVE INDESCRIBABLE MIGRANE HEADACHES, WEAKNESS, DIZZY SPELLS, BLACKOUTS, A SEVERE DROP IN WHITE BLOOD CELLS AND A LIST OF OTHER THINGS BUT YOU GET THE POINT. RIGHT NOW THEY NEED TO BUILD MY WHITE BLOOD CELLS BACK UP SO I CAN FIGHT INFECTION AND WEEN ME OFF THE HEART MEDICINE SO I DON’T BLEED TO DEATH ON THE OPERATING TABLE. YAY!! TODAY THEY DECIDED TO DO CAT SCANS AND LOOK FOR SWELLIING IN THE BRAIN CAUSED BY THE DRUGS THEY HAVE ME ON, OR ANYTHING ELSE THAT COULD BE CAUSEING THE SERVE MIGRANES. THEN ALL THE BLOOD DRAWN TODAY WAS SOOO MUCH FUN. THEY FOUND MY SUGAR WAS LOW AND THE THYROID IS NOT FUNCTIONING AT ALL AND MY WHITE BLOOD CELL ARE EVEN LOWER THAN BEFORE... I’M NOT SURE THEY REALLY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING!! I FEEL LIKE A LAB RAT IN SOME B RATED MOVIE!!
  SO THE LOWDOWN IS, I GO BACK THURSDAY FOR RESULTS AND IM SURE MORE TESTS... RIGHT NOW IM TRYING TO SUCK IT UP AND FUNCTION THE BEST I CAN BUT IT’S NOT EASY. I WILL SAY HEY THERE WHEN I CAN AND I HAVE THE ENERGY. SOME DAYS ARE BETTER THAN OTHERS... JUST REMEMBER IT’S NOTHING PERSONAL, I LOVE YOU ALL, AND WILL TRY TO SAY HEY AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. I WILL LET YOU KNOW HOW THE NEXT TEST GOES AND IF I DON’T SHOW UP FOR AWHILE MY FU HUBBY IS IN TOUCH WITH ME EVERYDAY... HE WILL LET YA’LL KNOW IF I KEEL OVER!! LOL JUST KIDDING TOO MEAN TO DIE AND I HAVE A 4 YR OLD TO RAISE!!! LOL I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! HUGSZ AND KISSES