Coming back from my mom's always makes me reflect on life as a whole because while I wish I could spend an eternity of birthday's with her, I know the reality is that her birthday's are limited. It makes me look back on my life and no matter how lonely I might get, I'm doing ok. I have 4 children, all of whom are happy, healthy and successful. One being recruited by Harvard and will probably go there, one up and coming in his own right and will without a doubt be recruited with a full ride athletic scholarship as well. Each have outstanding goals and know what it takes to get to them. My daughter is healthy, smart, beautiful and wants to be the next Rachel Ray. That works for me! And Dalton, my youngest, who in his life I foresee will have to come to terms with the fact that he is fatherless.But he too, is destined for great things, I can see, even at 3. Yes I still foresee me single that many years down the road. Those 4 wonderful children are how I measure my success as a person. I'm obviously not totally where I want to be financially or with my career but I have been successful as a mom. And I will not measure me as a person based on the fact that I'm not barbie. I may not be a size 4, but neither was Marilyn Monroe. My measure of myself is based on my heart, my sheer will to survive in this extremely cruel world of fake shallow people. Beauty itself should not be based solely on the measurement of one's bust size or the tinyness of their waist but of how big their heart is; how geniune their soul is; how much passion they carry with them for life, their family, and the desire to love someone. I hope that when I die, if I am not remembered for anything else in this life, that I will be remembered as a mother who had and for all eternity will have an undying love in her heart.
