I don't understand much of anything anymore. The harder I try the harder I fall. I ve lived my life trying to help people. I never think of myself first.But it always seems that bad things always happen to me. I don't talk to a lot of people but the people I do I cherish with all my Heart. I m loosing faith in myself in life and in the Future. I care deeply about all these things but its getting harder to keep faith about them. Im loosing people in my life more and more each day. In one way or another. Some from my stupidity other from death itself. Im sorry to all I have ever hurt in my life and I wish everyday that I could help the ones close to me more then I do. Those people know who they or. Im not a smart man but I know what love is. I LOVE YOU. (H)