Queen of Wonderland's blog: "soulful life"

So I posted a few new pics and since a few of you have been asking for a few comments on pics, they have different numbers on what number to get too. Who ever is 25 or 160 or 200 gets a salute. Also the higher the comment number, the sexier the salute! So number 200 is gonna get something much sexier than number 25 *disclaimer* you do not get to choose the pose, I do and I'll keep a total of my winners so everyone gets the salute. You can only win one salute.

Hahp (pronounced ha-ppy) Chocolate eyes Espresso colored skin Crimson lips A luscious touch Silver adorns thy neck Diamonds sparkle Caressing the body Glittering, illuminating Candles floating Roses scattered Corks popping Red flowing Bloodshed of Grapes Drink my pretty one Intoxicated on Love

So as I was driving down the road today, a few birds passed in front of me and then out of the blue a bird nosedived and hit my car. Feathers went flying and the bird was stuck in the grill of my car. I flipped out because a bird just committed suicide on my car! oh yeah and I spilled coffee on my white shirt before that even happened.

Baby steps, that's what everyone always told me. Start with a trike, then training wheels, then raise them slightly so I thought they really were helping me and then they came off. Well I've developed my own training wheels to be a better person and these are my own personal 10 goals. I may not reach them all at the same time and they aren't in any particular order of importance but they are still important. 1. Listen more 2. Say thank you more often 3. Smile at strangers 4. Appreciate the small things my boyfriend does 5. Cook a homemade meal more often 6. Keep my pains to myself 7. Pick up more pennies 8. Random acts of kindness 9. Stay organized 10. Give more hugs

The ones of you that have spent the time to talk to me on here know that for the most part I'm usually very cheerful and kinda funny. However everyone needs to break down and cry every once in a while and tonight is my night to cry. My life for once seems to be going great, I have a great boyfriend but it tears me apart to see his family going through the things I've already been through. My dad told us to get out in 1996. We moved out that summer into a trailer park. I've been white trash, literally we were broke, I was mainly raised by my neighbors and my older sister. The only girls in the neighborhood were me and my sister, so we were raised around all boys and older couples. In the fall my mom's daddy died from lung cancer. We went up to the family farm to bury him in the cemetery which lies right above the house. My dad wasn't allowed to go. That christmas was odd, I spent it in the trailer first that I went to my dads and he gace me a card which read "Merry Christmas, I love you and above love he wrote hate. It also says I was a mistake to be born and he wishes my mom had aborted me or at least had a miscarriage with me." I haven't seen my dad since Christmas day 1996. In 1997 times were hard, my mom and sister got into a lot of fights with each other. Then in 1998 my mom bought us a house in a neighborhood, for once it seemed things were looking better again. To be continued. . .

I had never heard of this disease until a few weeks ago when one of my friends found 3 sores on his body. He thought at first they were just large pimples until he went to pop one and instead of pus, a fiber like hair emerged. This disease which was first seen in 2006 was diagnosed as delusional feelings of bugs crawling under the skin and the fibers that were found on the body were just pieces of lint. Medical researchers almost brushed it off, however when a scientists son kept saying bugs and pointing to his lip she began to take a closer look. Under a 30x magnification she was strands of multicolored fibers running through his lip. The fibers glow under ultraviolet light and it is to believed that around 11,00 families have been infected with this disease. Morgellons was first discovered in the 17th century and the word actually means "harsh hairs" because people began to notice thread like black hairs sprouting from the body, usually on children back then. Symptoms include: fatigue lesions that start as bumps sensation of bugs crawling under the skin itchiness fibers coming out of the skin fibers running throughout the skin (like multicolored veins) clusters of what looks like lint of crushed bugs in lesions harding or thickening of skin hair loss lymph edema joint pain It's been researched very little since 2006 however in 2008 many people have come out on CNN, ABC, NBC and other shows demanding that more research be put towards this disease. Some medical researchers are saying this disease is a result of lyme disease, some say its a fungi, a parasite that lives on the skin and later burrows into the skin, and some doctors still say its a delusion.

This past week I haven't been on much because J.A.H. overdosed on some pills and died. He was only 16. I remember going to the skating rink back in middle school and he was the one who taught me how to spin around backwards to forwards and we tried to grind on the rails but we never quite made it past a few inches. I've been trying to remember the good times but everytime I look up I see another friend on drugs or drunk. Whether it be drugs such as pills, cocaine, crack, heroin, saliva, weed, cigarettes, or alcohol. I see the pain of their life, the times we've been through, almost dying, car crashes, the cops, scars, abuse, rape, reality. It's hard, he was only 16, I'm not much older and I've been through so much more and survived. It's just not fair

Hell Yeah, David Allen Coe tonight at 11! The N Club pictures? maybe me havin a good time? hell yeah drinkin? hopefully good seats? I should for the price I paid are you jealous? because Im wearing a mini skirt haha poor fellows