he fell before her
and she was brought to her knees
why
she screamed
they didnt deserve this
it was too horrid a dream
too painful to bear
she woke with a terror
too deep to explain
and she looked around her room
the sight of too many tears
the sight of too many fears
and she cried
at the death of memory
at the death of dreams
but she couldnt replace it
and she couldnt console it
nothing would make the empty feeling fade
nothing could fill the void
of never amounting to anything
she knew that she would forever be hated
and always be a failure
nobody would ever love her
the way she wanted to be loved
nobody would ever hold her
the way she wanted to be held
she needed to find a way to accept it
she looked everywhere
searched all the lonely nights for a reason
to not die
but she couldnt find any
and now
she sat crying
just
like
before
and she held the knife
and she pressed down
but then
a light came on
and someone grabbed her arm
and told her not to cry
that it was alright
and they took her
and held her close
and loved her
just like she wanted
and they were happy
and one day
she left
so far away
she cried so long
and couldnt replace him
couldnt even come close
she was broken again
everytime she thinks shes fine
something else happens
and she's torn
