firefly's blog: "Shallow thoughts"

Reality takes a smoke break

While we here

Exchanging words

Looking at still moments from each other lives

Hoping

For a real connection

It's time

It's done

The dust has settled

It's my turn

To turn a page

To be happy again

I know you're out there

Waiting for me

Have your love

Packed and ready

There's a room in my heart

Where I locked my sadness away

I stand by the door

Once in a while

Breathing in the fumes

Seeping through the cracks

I feel it

I give in

I'm not afraid

It's contained

Then

I step away

I'm free

The dissapointment

In your eyes

Shoots rays of blame and regret

The loud whispers you

Say to yourself

As you walk away,

Spit frustration and hate

You are transperent

Like glass

You cut me

Hurt me

Make me bleed

Tears

Invisable strings

Make up everything

Control everything

Explain everything

Once, I saw a picture

Of a hand drawing

Another hand that

Was drawing the first one

It's like me

Trying to understand

Myself

If I were here before

I must have been

A gypsy

Fierce and proud

Stomping my feet

To the beat

Without a care in the world

I see your eyes

On a stranger's face

Your smile,

Your hands

Scattered

In the big bang

I open my eyes

And realize where

I am

Back in this body

Somebody, Nobody

When I dream,

My soul wanders

Free and unattached

Then I wake up

It is trapped again

Slave to the physical

To rules

To the heaviness of everything

My soul

Is a butterfly

Fluttering its wings

Inside a cage

When you whispered my name

An army of ants rushed down my spine

All red roses bled a single tear

With a shallow gasp I waited for your touch