i guess thats how it should be up down up down ...
i feel so confused i feel sooo hurt i feel worried i want to know how he is doing i hope he is doing well i hope he is happy ... i want him to be happy
i burned my self at work again ... its all puffy sighs ... i sickof being like this
u know i cry when ever something upsets me
and its all over this cuz i hold things in
i dont know i am confused i wish things were just diffent
i wish i could see things differnt
or stop loving or like i dont know i dont know more then anything i kinda wish it could be last week
but thats ok i will be ok
Dan at work told me something wise today he was with someone 10 years
he said when a bomb gose off it has a half life
like a nuke bomb liek in if its half liek is 200 years in 200 its life will be 100 then in 100 50 tujen in 50 25 slowly till its damage is gone
its like thats what heart break is life the1st half life was 3 days b4 i felt a lil better now i am sad again so maybe in 1.5 days i will feel a lil better
or maybe cuz i am still depressed it hastn reached the up point to start a new count yet i dont know i jsut wanna fel better
