Catalyst of Insanity TO Girl's blog: "randomness"

So have u ever noticed that there r some songs u listen to them and u just ball your eyes out its like u cant control it they bring u back to a time and place and u cant control it. I put my my comp on random and omg that just happened it just took me back to a moment I had almost forgoten its strange how those emotions havnt changed its been years but when i hear that song I cry i guess thats y i never listen to it lol

So she is strick no strippers soo tell me what u think about my idea ot re inact this

Soooo my mom is ill again god i hate this last time she was ill she almsot died now i have too go and i dont wanna leave her alone but theres another family crisis right now and they ned my help but i freaking about leaving my mom last ime ie left for school i came home and she was in the hospital and there for 3 weeks she should have died they say that but she didnt she had home care for month i scard i really scared right now i am really worried

i will never forget my my dad changed the locks on me months later i was aloud in to get some of my stuff my aunt was there my dad and my aunt dont really know me all that well my aunt was scard as I dance round to this song singing joyfuly getting my stuff and then singing anoher song and another later my aunt went ok she seems crazy like if she stopped singing she would snap and kill us or something y dosnt she just yell like a nomral person ohh and i so love this line i anit twist i anit demented ha ohh but just little bit

Sooo i sued my friend and was texted this Did you enjoy playing with Ace Angels hun? Send us any good shots or let us know if you wish to BP model with us. We loved your energy. -M" so i gonna be doing body paint modeling soooooo cool

soooo i am in an auction i never in them so u soooo need to help me out go rate me :p go go go :P and bid one me :P

"It's All Your Fault" I'd conjure up the thought of being gone But I'd probably even do that wrong I try to think about which way Would I be able to and would I be afraid Cause oh I'm bleeding out inside Oh I don't even mind (yeah) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair Da da dada da dada da Da dadadadadada da dadadadadada I'm trying to figure out what else to say (what else could I say?) To make you turn around and come back this way (Would you just come back this way) I feel like we could be really awesome together So make up your mind cause it's now or never (oh) It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not fair I would never pull the trigger But I've cried wolf a thousand times I wish you could Feel as bad as I do I have lost my mind It's all your fault You called me beautiful You turned me out And now I can't turn back I hold (I hold) my breath (my breath) Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air (running out of air) And it's not fair (Oh yeah It's all your fault) I hold my breath Because you were perfect But I'm running out of air And it's not (it's not) fair

so i have a hard time speaking these days ... i dont thinki really talk to anyone its like a big push i am pushing everthing everyone away i dont wanna be here for anytone and i dont really want much of anything the thins i long for i dont know i dot memer the lst tiem i got what i wanted and its always hurting and nothing feels good nothing tastes good and i am alone i make my self be but i sick of being desired and not wanted i sick of helping opl and getting nothing for it i tired of being whateer i am now just a shadow me me u know i stopped caring its bad t say it but i realy have stopped caring i wish i was over i am just soo fucking tired of the nightmares i am sick of the not sleeping i hate the panic attaxks i hate feeling weak i dont wanna be a shell of me i am hollow and i hate it i feel pointless and i sic of looking fr ppl to confort me i sm pass the poit of wanting to explain my self not to anyone not even my self

my god i am a sad loney person i comletely lostt my self i hate it and i wont even talkto ppl and the ppl i will talk to r just as messed up as me and leave me feeling worse i sit here will broken and i dont know who i am anymore i messed up i let my self down nd i am sitting here punishing my self for it tears down the face and i let it all slip i dont even know i dont know what i can do to i feel so i cant even explain it