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I am more than just the sum of my parts. I am an amazing person. I have always put myself in this bubble thinking I could only do what was in front of me, accomplish only what was in my reach. I always felt as if I couldn't go outside of the parameters that were given to me. That I couldn't expand myself and meet the full potential I was given. Not anyone's fault but my own. I got comfortable. I got complacent. And that's my fault. I can't say I would change anything. I mean everything that we do brings us to where we are supposed to be. But I do know that now I wouldn't change a thing. I'm happier than I ever thought possible. I feel completely at peace with myself. I am loved and I am cared for . I couldn't ask for anything else! I am me. I can't say I'm my best me cause we can always improve. But I am the best me at the moment and I am happy with that!!
So why is it so hard for people to actually be themselves?
Why do they feel the need to be fake or lie?
As much as it scares me to let people know the real me,
I do it anyway because I would rather somone dislike me for the real
me not because I was fake and lied.
Cause at the end of the day atleast I know I was me and true to myself.
People walk around with their heads up their asses and only see things
from their perspectives never taking the time to see a situation through
someone else's eyes when if they would just take that time they could
understand the other person so much more
im not perfect I have my share of flaws but atleast i can say i am always
true to myself i don't pretend to be something to make someone like me
actually i have come to a point to where i could care less if someone doesn't like me doesn't matter
i dont and will never make myself out to be something i'm not so don't lie to me i will find out i am very perseptive and pic up on everything and yes i am nosey i don't hide that fact if i am nosey then it is harder for people to lie to me and to deceive me
i may be wrong for how i feel and it is what it is but i won't change for anyone
Sometimes I just sit and wonder why I am the way I am. I mean why do I seem to care so damn much for people who are "supposedly my friends", when they obviously don't give two shits for me. Why do I even bother to give a damn, to check on them, to make sure they know they are loved and cared about....WHY??? I wonder this all the time yet I still do it. I can't bring myself to not care. Doesn't seem fair to me but it's not how I was made. I can pretend not to care, but in all honesty I always do and it sucks. My hubby says my heart is to big for my own good and I guess he's right. Just wish for once I could get some consideration for being a good friend... but that shit won't ever happen!!
Why am I always wrong for everything I do?? Why is it I never seem to be good enough no matter what... someone always wants more?? Why for once can't I just be completely and totally happy without any questions or any bad things being attached?? It's not fair no I am not perfect.. I have never claimed to be!! I'm just me. I have my faults and I have my flaws but I'm still me.. the best me I know how to be. But if never seems to be enough!! I shouldn't always feel like just fading away and disappearing. Yet that's how I always feel!!
I'm not perfect. I have my problems and my issues. I tend to care to much and love to hard. But hey that's me, I am who I am and I won't apologize for it. I get emotional at awkward times, I cry at the drop of a hat. I am the most caring person you will ever meet but don't get it twisted piss me off and the bitch will come forth. I don't try to be something I'm not. What you see is what you get. I am a big girl and I embrace my size proudly... for every one person who doesn't like me for my size there are 3 more that do so no stressing over it. It took a long time for me to completely embrace myself for who I am but I've done it again I am me. I won;t agree if you tell me I'm pretty, or beautiful or sexy or any of those things because I don't see me as such but I appreciate that others do. I also am one of the best friends you could ask for, I take my friendships seriously. When I say your my friend I mean just that I got your back when you need it. I am loyal to a fault... I mean sometimes you can't even back up a friend you just can't. If you don't know me and want to get to know me all I can say is ask I don;t bite. But dont come at me like you know me when you don't have a clue. Again I'm just me and I try my best to be the best me I can and that's all that matters.
