Bleeding heart full of pain
tears are flowing down like rain
manic thoughts of perpetual lies
devistating moans and thunder cries
Rivers of doubt flood my mind
no escape no solice to find
forever stuck in a desperate hole
that ravishes my mind and my soul
tearing away at all that I feel
can't get away from this pain that's so real
Heart on fire from every fear
face is drenched with loveless tears
can I trust what they say do they really care
should I believe it all , my heart should I bare
or stay locked up forever inside
away from it all I cry and hide
this isn't how it all should be
I should be a happier me
Wondering
Have your ever really wondered
who are your true friends
or who you can depend on
from now until the end
Have you ever really wondered
what is real and what is fake
of how much more nonsense
your can truely take
Have you ever really wondered
if all the hurt will go away
if the loneliness and sorrow
will forever stay
Have you ever really wondered
if it will all be alright
if you will always have to cry
to get to sleep at night
If any of these things you've wondered
then it will be ok
because you are still here
to wonder another day.
Mine Forever
Walking down a cold dark hall
Water dripping down moistened walls
The stinch of death fills the air
Walking through cobwebs, they stick in my hair
Reaching the end I quiver in fear
Knowing the pain awaiting me is near
Standing at the entrance of a dark cold room
and in the middle a large old tomb
I slowly enter my body shaking in fear
Hearing strange voices whisper in my ear
Looking around scared to death
Then on my neck I feel his breath
Smelling his scent; so sweet so strong
Knowing the want I have is wrong
Turning around looking in his eyes
He grabs my neck, I gasp in surprise
With just one hand he lifts me in the air
His eyes fixed upon my in a lustful stare
Then pulls me close his breath on my cheek
Trying to talk but unable to speak
He tilts my head revealing his mark
He bites deep and hard, everything goes dark
I awake with a craving, a longing , a lust
for blood, to feed is now a must
He offers his wrist so that I can taste
The sweet blood nectar that is laced
With life and love with me he shares
For this is how he shows he cares
He pushes me away, stop now thats enough
You need to be strong for now it gets rough
Teaching you all you need to know
No need to rush we will take it slow
We have eternity to spend together
Now that you are mine forever.
Meeting of Hearts
Sensual nights filled with love and care
Moments of passion for us to share
Entangled in lust our bodies do meat
My mind is racing my heart skips a beat
Drops of sweat cover our brow
Our bodies collide as one person now
Moans and cries of ecstasy fill the air
It’s a meeting of hearts with love to share
Other Part of Me
There are no words to describe how you make me feel
But all the love I feel in my heart that is truly real
I know I was deceitful and I told you lies
But I didn’t want to lose you, didn’t want to hear good-byes
I’ve never met anyone like you that seems to be
That special person I need in my life the other part of me
I promise to be truthful and then you will see
You did find your dream come true the day that you found me
Used
My body is just a pawn you use in your game
You use me and abuse me and you don’t even know my name
I like all the attention but I just can stand the pain
You push so hard that it feels like lightning during the rain
After we are finished you just push me away
All you do is laugh at me and you have nothing nice to say
But the weird thing about it is I cant stay away
I keep telling myself this is the last day
I said that I love you but that cant be true
Because if I really loved you these things to me I would not let you do
Just One of the Guys
It seems to me it cant be real
I mean its hard for me to express how I fee
lI toy with my own emotions, I make myself cry
Then just minutes later I try to figure out why
I’m not very attractive, in fact I’m quite plain
With this attitude and appearance I’ve brought myself much pain
Many friends say that I am pretty, to me its just lies
Because if I am so pretty…..Why do I feel like just one of the guys?
Through the Eyes of an Angel
Through the eyes of an angel the world is kind and pure
Your body is a temple, your mind and open door
That fills up with aspects of all the worldly things
The knowledge of the universe and all the joy it brings
Your heart is filled with anger, with lust, with love
That can be sweet, true, and pure as a single white dove
Through the eyes of an angel you’re my sweet and trusted friend
You’re the one that I can count on from now until the end
You’re the one I want to hold me and tell me everything is right
You’re the one I want to be with each and every night
So through the eyes of an angel the world is perfect you see
But it cannot be perfect for you are not with me
Rest in Peace
Endless whispers, shadowed dreams
Chaotic emotions and fantasies
Ravage my body and fill my heart
Twisting my mind and soul apart
River of tears, shadowed dreams
Sensual temptations and ecstasy
Flooding my mind and my soul
Ripping my heart to pieces I’m losing control
A never ending circle of misery and pain
Pleasures of the heart are driving me insane
Disturbing flashes of days gone by
Cant deal with it all I desperately cry
I need to put my manic heart at ease
and let my troubled mind rest in peace