Annelid's blog: "Ramblings,thoughts and assorted stuff"

Things are happening...some good some bad. Be back when i can.

I was working in North Bergen NJ at the time...for Liz Claiborne. Normally I'd take Route 3 to work but I decided to take route 80 (as I figured less traffic and I'm always a few minutes late to work...much to my bosses chargrin). I made it on to Tonelle Avenue (which is a main road about 4 blocks from where I worked). 

4 lanes of traffic were merged into 2 as a huge water main broke. I was thinking to myself,cripes my boss is going to go ballistic. I called my friend @ work and said - tell Tahseen I'm going to be a bit late. He said - Sure Steve but there's something major going on in ny. Get here when you get here.

And I did....eventually get to work and parked on the roof of the parking garage. Normally there would be a few people outside having a smoke or 2 but that gorgeous September morning there were...lot's of peope outside. I stepped out of my car and joked " wow a welcoming committee" . I was told to look across the river into NY and i saw one of the world trade buildings on fire/smoking. I said..what happened? Early reports say it was a private planed that crashed into the building.

I clocked in and went back outside and we were all talking about what was going on,listening to a portable radio we had.

Then....then another plane hit and my heart dropped. The collective gasps and cries were heard. I couldn't wrap my head around what i was seeing. I ran inside and told my co workers who ran to the window in disbelief. I called my dad @ his office *who was a town over* and told what was happening. He was in shock. I tried to call my gf at the time and i couldn't get through, nor could i get through to my mom. A co worker sat down with me and we said nothing but looked at each other. We went home (early day..and the ONE time I didn't care that i was leaving early) and I was glued to the news. Sure things like this happen overseas and you feel bad..but in our backyard? Here? I held my gf and we cried ...I said our lives have now changed ....things are different...and they were and are.

I'm not a overly religious man nor am i super patriotic but I can't think of a better place to live and love in. My grandparents came to this country to escape religious intolerance and to have a better live and i'm glad they did.

G0D Bless the United States of America (and the firemen,police,emt's and our Troops who every day do the  selfless sacrifice).

So where do I begin (or rather end?) Aptly enough , with my last fubar blog. I’ve been on this site since ,geez, 2007 or so and it’s has had it’s up’s and down’s (mostly downs.)

 I’ve met –virtually of course – some interesting people. I made a rl friend here. I loved someone dearly (and f’d that up) and so on. I've watched "friends" here having falling outs over trivial things. I've seen the good and the bad in people. Yes I'm guilty of being a major dick to some people. Others I've tried (to no avail) to reach out too. Ya win some, you loose some I suppose.

I suppose I got to the point in my life where fubar doesn’t matter anymore. The faces change the angst, agita , drama and the associated crap remains and stays the same. I can’t look for love or companionship via the shout box. It’s not realistic nor doable. Sure I can buy your attention/affection with credits but I want true love. Not this. I don’t hold any ill will towards any of you.

 I wish you all (even the ones I butt heads with) nothing but the best. I hope you all find whatever your looking for.

And don’t tell me your not looking for something because you are. If you weren’t you wouldn’t be here…vying for attention. But I’m not here to make judgment on your decisions. That’s on you.

As for me, I need (for sanities sake) to move up and move on. If you have my cell – call or text me. If you have me on facebook, great. If not then good luck, god bless and thanks for the fish (and the memories.)

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done

So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk 

 If we don't neutralize decay , we may run out of tomorrows. Time tryeth truth and truth was found and fined.

I can hear the kiss fill me, through the minds and warning signs. Sounds of ghost go further, if you engage in a coven with crows.

If we don't neutralize decay , we may run out of tomorrows. Time tryeth truth and truth was found and fined. 

 Let's break bread together our honesty moves more than lies. What do you mean "I need"?