XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

Thanksgiving 

so much to be grateful for ... 

one step at a time ... 

Not everyone has a great time during the holidays can be the hardest for ones who missing people .. either to loss or break up etc 

The more i miss my angel , the more i find myself calling her ... 

And theres people out there missing children , missing husbands , missing wives .. missing mums and Dads... 

Holidays can be extra rough ... 

Its the time when you want everything to be so ideal ... 

when its not ... its feels ... different in a sense ... 

But your time will come ... Happieness can found , not by dweling in what you don't have for to long .. 

 but by appreciating what you do ... 

and remembering who have even less... and still they have smiles on thier faces ... 

Remember the homeless , remember the soldiers , we have so much .. and things won't be cause of our happieness.. 

But the love we give each other and our families , that is never wasted.... 

When your filling your plate high with food , remember there are millions who go without ... 

Whatever it takes find a way .. to be grateful for something ... 

None of us are alone as we think we are ... 

Smile at a stranger.. Wish them a Happy Thanksgiving ... 

you might just make thier day! ... 

Wouldn't that be awesome ... 

Be generous , be kind ... 

And have a happy and safe thanksgiving... 

The bomb changed Everything

The more i see , the more i feel .. 

the more i read.. the less i need ... 

Children having to give up everything that makes them children .. 

imagine a bomb going off at night 

knowing you have to leave .. everything behind .. 

imagine a childing running from the danger then losing his mother .. to a bomb .. 

 all because they to venture out for some food .. 

These children see no hope right now ... 

suffering so bad .. thier bodies are almost breaking breaking .. 

and some are trying to tell us that .. this not not matter ... 

Well i say it does .. 

They are not my children but my heart breaks for them , 

 My arms ache to hold and comfort them ..

 and give them hope .. 

that thier nightmare will end .. 

Suffering i cannot know how is feel .. compassion and love ... 

So whatever i can do .. i must find a way to show these children i care .. and that they matter regardless of where they are in the wolrd... 

They matter , more then my coffee , my bacon, more then wants and desires... 

They matter and they always will ... 

Without campassion ... humanity  cannot survive ... 

or should we let that die too ? We have a choice to make ...

A child weeps tonight ..

Not only from the loss of his /her parents..

But tonight he woke from the nightmare reliving it all again..

As if the suffering wasn't bad enough...

Now this child is alone in world trying to face adult problems...

He can't eat .. He can't sleep..

He cries on his mattress... 

How can I see this and not feel?

And there are so many others..

These children... These people need our help...

We need to help them!

We need to give them hope ..

That one day their suffering will end....

We care about suicide...

I can only imagine the strength these poor people have to have...

Let our compassion shine a light of hope ...

Let not their suffering be in vain! 

I ask myself .. 

Why don't people care for the innocents ? 

 Why don't they cry for the ones who lost thier lives ?

doing something as innocent as going to a concert .. ? 

When did they become part of the war? .. 

War cares nothing for the innocents... 

It shows no mercy .. to ones who which not to have anything to do with it ... 

War only care's for its own purpose... 

Its own agenda... 

But i will cry for the innocents .. 

even if society wants to damn me as weak ... 

i will cry for all those who lost thier lives today ... 

I will not  give up my humanity .. 

 I refuse to become densitized ... 

And i hope you do too ... 

Fight to remain someone who cares ... 

Because a loss of life is a loss of life anywhere  in the the world .. 

Don't let them them tell you a life matter less if its not American ... 

A life is a life ..

I will weep and i will grieve ... 

And i will remember this day 

I will say my prayers for all those who are suffering and i will carry hope that the suffering will end soon .. 

So that the grieving can begin .. 

Worst Day ever ... 

We all just have a worst day  every once in a while .. 

Nothiing i mean nothing seems to go right .. 

Not enough sleep ... 

And then those drede conversations you never want  to be part of .. 

And the day seems to drag on and on , with seemingly no end .. 

The night not much better but you rest in the hope that you will start over again .. 

Tomorrow... 

Tomorrow is a new day ... 

Tomorrow is here now ... 

Nope the tomorrow coming will be even better .. 

it's all good , life goes on and that jazz.. 

At least the worst day ever is over ... 

Dear Mum , 

Today was another day , i wished you could of been there to see me accomplih waht i set out to do ... 

I guess you were in a way , because your part of me... 

I miss you Mum .. and i get ready to turn another year older .. 

I wish you were here by my side .. 

I've been in school and trying new things .. and facing new fears ... 

I still miss you .. Like it was yesterday ... 

We did this photography assignment where i got your old pictures and i tired to recreate them... 

to look like you ... and i did in a way .. but then i started wondering what was the same and what was different about us .. 

 And one thing i noticed was that Dad captured your Joy and beauty in his pictures better then almost anynoe else ... 

And you know the crazy thing .. he still loves you .. in a way ... he cried at your funeral ... 

I think he will always your  friendship... 

I felt like understood a lil more bout the life you had before you had me , and the love you shared .. 

I know that one point it must of been so amazing so beautiful so precious... 

I guess it was hard for me to see and understand that .. because when i was so young ... you guys split up .. 

and i only saw the pain , the aftermath .... 

But as i look at it now .. i know it been an amazing love ... 

The harder i search to find it .. that love becomes hidden the less i try , the more its there ... 

Love seems to be like some sort of strange magnet lol ... 

And i don't want the kind of love that fizzles and fades Mum .. 

 I want the love that lasts a lifetime .. the type of love .. where your in the crowded room yet all u see sometimes .. is the light is each others eyes ... 

You never wanting to hold each other's ...

You wait to turn in for the night not because you feel you have to but because just enjoy each others company so much that ... it just wouldnt be same ... 

Mum i miss those kinds of conversation we used to have about when you were young .. i would so ask your advice on things ... 

Oneday ... we'll talk again in heaven ... over tea.. and hopefully .. i'll get the chance to be someone's angel ... and look over them like you do for them .. 

Love you more then words ... 

Always Forever 

Your Darling Briar

P.s Mum  I don't watch the news lol ..(private joke)

In the shadows we stand .. 

Sometimes hiding from the sun ... 

Not always easy to understand .. 

With live with a knowledge and an empathy .. 

that defies what it is to be normal... 

When we ar hurt , we still choose to love .. 

When we are lonely we cry.. 

Not cause we are weak but cause we are genuine to ourselves..

And sometimes , when we care so much ,we hurt so much .. 

We lose so much ... 

But we never stop loving 

In the shadows we stand ... 

Away from the sun .. 

Enjoying quiet of being able to think .. able to express on our own .. 

Contary to most popular belief , we don't always want the lime light .. 

We know how to share .. 

We share from the shadows ... 

There is a word that scares us more than so many we've ever heard ... 

This word is cancer ... 

it never hits home one way it does till someone know get's sick with it ... 

Cancer is such a horrible thing.. 

Some people don't even know what to say .. once they hear a friend has it ... 

I went to church last night week , i hadn't been in while .. 

and one  of the cutest couples there .. 

was so sad .. they just found out that their Daughter has cancer ... 

Its scary how much you hear it said ... 

Cancer .. nothing makes you want to cry more then hearing someone has cancer ... 

I wish i  could fix it , wave a magic wand and cure all those who had cancer ... 

But life's not always a fairytale... 

Sometimes its seems so cruel ... 

And the loveiest of people die young .. 

and the cruelest ones remain .. 

That is life 

Be grateful for your health and your loved ones .. 

Each day we live is a gift ...

Dear Tasha , 

So sad i lost you .. when you were young .. 

no time to fulfill all your dreams.. 

Your smile so bright and bold .. 

You were always a treasure to behold .. 

But on that fateful day ... 

That car came took your life away .. 

To heaven u flew on angel wings ... 

Everytime i see a picture im reminded of the special frienship we had.. 

Oneday we will meet again ... 

and there will be hugs given .. 

which are long over due ... 

The LIfe of a photographer.. 

Pushed in so many directions ... 

pulled in others.. 

standing awkwardly outside my comfort zone... 

doing things i've never done before ... 

Exploring things that scare me .. 

I feel like on the edge of a clif trying to find that perfect 

creation... 

So much to process... 

Time nearing the last minute before its due ... 

Doing the best i can to make my mind's eye vision come true.. 

In another realm .. crossing over from everything i knew .. to 

everything i need to do ... 

Photography the challenge that gets my blood running hot...