To the fallen 

We won't forget you , 

To the fallen ,

Thankyou for all you have done.. 

I won't know all your faces ..

But i love you all anyway.. 

Afganhistan was no joke .. 

All the bombs , All the sand , All the dead .. 

Blood everywhere ...

Long hard days .. without barely a break .. 

Barely any sleep .. 

U guys did it all .. 

We lost the best of you , and the ones that returned home .. carry the loss of thier brothers in thier hearts 

May we never forget your sacrifice!!!

Feeling the pressure ,sometimes to be with someone

but my life is in your hands , 

there's many things i need to right now ..

And i'll always have my true friends .. 

My journey isn't over its like its just begun again .. 

time to find myself , and love me as i love my friends 

now is not the right time to let my heart be free..

to fall into the arms of any man , just happy to have me 

I'm on a bigger journey , i don't know long it will take .. 

but one thing i know is it won't a mistake 

My life is God hands , and he'll help me grow stronger still 

My life in God will , i just have to let him do his will .. 

I won't wear my mask today 
i'll let my grief show 
I won't wear my mask today
 i'll let the tears flow 
I won't wear my mask today .
. I really have to grieve
I miss you more you more then words can conceive 


Some days in the calender just seem so black 
there's nothing i wouldn't do to have you back ... 
I'ts not always fun to be a motherless child .. 
To wander , and get lost  .. and there's not always someone around 


So true is saying you don't what you have till its gone 
but now i see it .. 
Mothers Day .. is no fun without you .. even though its my day too 
I don't want to smile . i just wan't to cry .. 
Hide from the sun till the pain goes away .. 

But each i find i always have to find something do to do .. 
But i don't for a moment stop thinking about you ... 

I know it doesn't make sense but i'm already sad 
I miss you Mum .. May always seems to hit me like a truck .. and then run over me and back up 

Every year you think it will easier and the grieve will disappear .. and a rainbow will come out 
I wish it was that easy Mum .. 
I wish was like a movie and you could cut , pause , edit .. and remind some parts ... 
Cause i'd of taken even more time with you .. 
I've forgiven myself for leaving and starting my life .. 
but i still wonder if you would of lived longer if i was by your side , taking care of you .. like i used to ..

I miss you Mum .. 
I wish i could call .. And tell how much ... but i write you letters and poems in heaven to keep in touch .. 
I hope you like them .. i hope they make you smile .. it takes alot to write them .. iti's like a bleeding of my soul .

I miss you so much , i wish i never had to let you go 

Love your Daughter
Briar xxoo

Even when your broke there's fun to be had 

You don't  have to be always be happy .. but why always be sad ?

Turn on the radio and dance like mad .. 

Good friends and good company are so much of a joy 

So yesterday we were dancing over all the kitchen it was fun .. 

i had  on my sneakers and she had heels ..

I think dancing is a carefree as it feels ..

We sat and we talked , like women seem to do .. 

It start was the start of something, something so new ..

She was writer too she showed me some stuff .. it was really good , 

I tried to  encourage her enough ..

We met for lunch but i was asked  to  stay till tea .. it fun adventure just her and me and lovely Mum ,whos is as sweet as sweet can be

Soldiers Wife 

We weren't given a weapon 

We weren't given a medal .. 

Or a uniform ..

we weren't trained how to love them 

but we did .. 

We weren't tranied to go to war .. 

But the real war was when they got back .. 

How does one .. teach another how to be a family again?

We coped on our own for so long without them .. 

That we got used to doing everything on our own 

So when they came back .. everything was different ..

Even the children had grown up some without them ..

What do you say to a child when thier father acts a lil different ?

 What do you say to Soldier when he can't to normal civilian life ? 

What to do tell him ? do you tell him  things will get better ?

Do you tell him the truth .. that nothing makes sense anymore ?

I have more questions to these then i have answers .

Boston Bombings 

watch the news , or read it online .. people died today .. 

2 dead ,including an 8 year old child ..130 hurt .. and thats not including the pll who were affceted by what they saw .. 

those are the headlines today .. 

I feel scared to go there now .. 

things have changed 

I want to know more tomorrow 

Why ? 

and what will we do to make our city safe again ? 

Silent tears didn't fall this weekend , 

Silent tears didn't fall at all .. 

It was peaceful for the most part , 

More peaceful then its been in a long time .. 

But it's a pity that things won't stay that way 

its a pity it will get worse ..

These kinds relationships never do ..

Thier just not  designed that way 

We're not Together anymore .. 

But we still fight , like we are .. 

I think main difference is he rarely ever apoligises 

So i'm the one who always seems to be wrong .. 

He can't give out compliments .. 

Or much encouragement unless its something he wants me to do 

These a a few signs that is not a healthy relationship of any type 

Now its just learning what a healthy relationship looks like 

What makes it stand out ? 

respect  for one 

encouragement to do things in life 

a Willingness to spend time together 

honesty about everything 

And a mutual Trust

These are good things to look for in a relationship of any kind

I still miss you when its late at night .. 

And i wanna someone to cuddle with .. 

I miss your voice , i miss your smile 

I wish i could tell myself not to .. 

But i'd rather be true to myself 

I miss you .. 

Those soulful eyes

Those full lips 

Your strong hands .. 

The way we laughed 

Damn it i still miss you .. 

Oneday  i guess youll just be a fond memory .. 

But till then i'll still miss you 

Shes only Ten now ,

but she steals my shoes , 

my pants , my dresses..

She's only Ten now , 

But she wears my lip gloss, 

She's only Ten now, 

But my jewellry is not safe either 

She's only Ten now, 

But Ten isn't what it used to be 

Kids grow up fast , and struggle to keep up with them .. 

She's only Ten now 

But the time going by fast , so fast 

She's only Ten now , 

But soon this world will be her to navigate on her own ...

She's only Ten now ,

So i'll treasure it while i can , what a lovely daughter i have 

so smart , so kind , so loving , and forgiving .