XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

Dear Mum , 

Today was another day , i wished you could of been there to see me accomplih waht i set out to do ... 

I guess you were in a way , because your part of me... 

I miss you Mum .. and i get ready to turn another year older .. 

I wish you were here by my side .. 

I've been in school and trying new things .. and facing new fears ... 

I still miss you .. Like it was yesterday ... 

We did this photography assignment where i got your old pictures and i tired to recreate them... 

to look like you ... and i did in a way .. but then i started wondering what was the same and what was different about us .. 

 And one thing i noticed was that Dad captured your Joy and beauty in his pictures better then almost anynoe else ... 

And you know the crazy thing .. he still loves you .. in a way ... he cried at your funeral ... 

I think he will always your  friendship... 

I felt like understood a lil more bout the life you had before you had me , and the love you shared .. 

I know that one point it must of been so amazing so beautiful so precious... 

I guess it was hard for me to see and understand that .. because when i was so young ... you guys split up .. 

and i only saw the pain , the aftermath .... 

But as i look at it now .. i know it been an amazing love ... 

The harder i search to find it .. that love becomes hidden the less i try , the more its there ... 

Love seems to be like some sort of strange magnet lol ... 

And i don't want the kind of love that fizzles and fades Mum .. 

 I want the love that lasts a lifetime .. the type of love .. where your in the crowded room yet all u see sometimes .. is the light is each others eyes ... 

You never wanting to hold each other's ...

You wait to turn in for the night not because you feel you have to but because just enjoy each others company so much that ... it just wouldnt be same ... 

Mum i miss those kinds of conversation we used to have about when you were young .. i would so ask your advice on things ... 

Oneday ... we'll talk again in heaven ... over tea.. and hopefully .. i'll get the chance to be someone's angel ... and look over them like you do for them .. 

Love you more then words ... 

Always Forever 

Your Darling Briar

P.s Mum  I don't watch the news lol ..(private joke)