XaviRoseMaiden's blog: "poetry"

What would i do with i won Powerball?

What would i do if i won Powerball ,its a good question.. 

It got me thinking about all the people in my life ive met , and the people who need it the most.. my friends , my family .. ..

Well i tell you for a start i coudn't spend it all on me ... 

I couldn't buy all these luxury items... 

I'd give money to non profits ... 

From homeless Shelters which socks and personal care items  to Animal shelters  that need blankets , food, .. Donate Food to the working poor of america.. Homeless Veteran shelters.. 

The simple things we all need ... 

I'd give money to families sufffering from cancer who could pay thier bills...

I'd give money to orphanages .. 

I'd give give money to scholarships for children ... teens, adults

I'd buy a simple house out in the country, not to far from the town .. And give back to my community.

I'd build things there for the children .. there neverseems like enough things for them to ..

An art and music centres so children play , discover and explore , i'd hire good people , who cared.. 

Like beautiful playgrounds .. 

So many things i could see ... 

If i won that money theres no way i could spent it all on me ... 

Theres so much we could do ... 

And you know what we still can even if we don't play the powerball .. 
We can "be the change we wish to see in the world " Like Ghandi Said..

Kindness don't cost a thing..  

You'll Always Be My Little Girl 

You turn thirteen tomorrow

I don't know how i feel 

Seems like just yesterday , we were playing outside on the swings...

Walking in the park , collecting all kinds of things.. 

You were always running , you'd barely ever stop ... 

Not afraid of anything ... 

 

So precious have been your smiles , your laughter.. 

so clever always climbing , discovering , exploring .. 

Always reading and investigiating .. 

Only the subject has changed.. 

 

You talk about boys now , and how cute they are .. 

i worry but i know its part of growing up .. 

Your always going to be my little girl .. 

With bouncy brown girl and shirley temple curls .. 

 

But i still can't beleive you'll be thriteen tomorrow.. 

In Seventh grade .. 

And 5'2

Where did all that time go ? 

If only i knew 

I love you so much ... more than anything in this world .. 

You'll always be my little girl 

Here i am in the winter .. the white , whiteness.. all the colors of winter..The frozen snow , at my feet once again .. I walk the streets alone .. my heart starts to race .. A stranger yet not a strange to this placeThe cold air .. in my lungs .. But not in my heart .. This place still feels like home ... the more i walk ... the more i feel .. its so strange to walk through the town  again .. So many memories here ... I still feel a lil lost.. Like I'm having a deja vu ..So beautiful is life 

I walked into market basket last night , and i didn't even know which aisle to go down ... But as the time passes .. The old maps of the streets i once knew .. come out from the archives I saw one of my awesome friends last night .. It almost seemed like id never been away .. So precious is friendship ..We hugged so tight ...So beautiful is life   

Finally got to meet her little boy .. So precious was that moment .. Time is the thing , we need the most .. we treasure the most .. when we value it .. But it seems like other days .. We want to waste time .. We want to sit and nothing for a moment .So beautiful is life .

 
I drank from lifes precious cup last nightAnd just reflect on things , on places , on people that we have met .. Reflect on the lessons life has taught us ... Sometimes it feels like being between two worlds .. Even three, The Past , The present and the futureSo complex is life and our journies .. But to move forward into the next stage it seems apparent that we must .. Love , forgive , find a way past the hurts .. into the joy that tomorrow brings .. As i sit and i think about the friends i have lost .. i sit i know that was honoured to have them in my life.. honoured to share such a precious of their journies ...So beautiful is life  

As the Rain beats down , like a distant drum .. it matches the rhythm of my fingers typing on the keyboard.. It take it all in How precious is life..We must taste it .. like fine chocolate .. Savour it like the best wine ... Feel it and embrace it like the sweetest hug .. We must develop from the negatives ... Focus on the positives .. And carry on .. Let the journey become new again without yesterday's regrets .. Like the finest picture we could ever on a blank canvas .. I thank god i'm still here .. Still fighting , still breathing ... So thankful i woke up this morning to live another day... Through it all life continues ... So beautiful is life ... . 

 

NEW YEARS RULES

This next year we have ...

To continue following our dreams.. 

We have to work hard .. 

Make great goals that inspire us to better ourselves..

Be grateful for what we have ... 

And give to others whenever we can ... 

And pay it forward into the community!

Without asking for something in return.. 

Love without condition... 

Be brave and coragious 

Enjoy life ... 

And be kind without reward.. 

Be honourable to ones word .. 

Happy New Year 

One and all .. 

Make it be the best that it can be !

 

Life's Lessons... 

The more we live the more we learn.. 

we have to figure which bridges to cross.. 

And which bridges to burn ... 

We have to find our inner happieness.. 

Appreciate and embrace our inner sorrow.. 

But never give up on our new tomorrow... 

 

 

 

It doesn't even feel real yet Just got the call this morning... Was going to see her in a few days... Now she's gone.. My precious friend is gone .. Without any warning.... I miss her already.. I want to know why... She leaves behind a son... And many broken hearts... Rest in peace .... I love you Barbara you were family to me!

Be careful who you confide in..

make sure its someone who really cares..

Before you open your heart ..

And let it in come pouring out..

Some people will only want hear your fine...

When your not finr at all...

Let those people hear your fine...

And tell the trusted ones more...

 

There are a lot of people out there that care beyond themselves...

You just have to find them and be a good friend to them...

Its ok to grieve for loss of a loved one...

Its ok grieve because miss someone so bad your whole heart aches...

Just be careful who you bare your soul..

Not everyone has pure intentions...

If your lonely call a friend... Do something you love... Go for a walk... 

Its not easy being alone over Christmas...

Remember there's a lot of us out there...

Feeling the same way...

You are loved...

Its just hard to see when your coping with so much pain...

 

Be safe all... Together when we care we make a difference...

Love to all...

Xavi

Beautiful Soul .. 

We miss you already... 

You bought so much comfort to the world .. 

 by loving all of us so much .. 

 

The Cancer was cruel to take you away .. 

but since when has Cancer cared ? 

I loved you from day one .. 

Your kindness showed clearly in your eyes ... 

Your heart was so big and your compassion for others so strong .. 

You gave your life to help others Day in .. Day out.. 

 

Beautiful Soul , 

may you rest in peace ... 

May the Angels become your friends in heaven ... 

You will be missed dearly here ... 

But your memory will not be forgotten...

Your legacy lives on in all of us that you touched .. 

Beautiful Soul forever we will love you ... 

Without you 

It doesn't feel like christmas without you .. 

It just doesn't feel the same ... 

I wish you were here .. 

I miss you so much ...

And now i have to do another Christmas without you .. 

Gosh i hate having to choose ... 

I have to survive this damn holiday season... 

just to see you again ... 

I wish it wasn't so hard for us .. 

I love you with all my heart and soul , and everything its in me .. 

I dont want to fake  smile , when all i want to do is cry ... 

I dont sing christmas songs ... without you .. 

It just doesnt feel like Christmas... 

Without you ... 

It's just another day ... 

Without you .. 

Little girl... 

My sunshine wants to stay behind a cloud .. 

I miss you so damn much it hurts ... 

deep in my soul... 

But i have to do it anyway .. 

Without  you .. 

I have to a fake a smile .. 

So i don't spoil anyone else fun .. 

But its just not the same ..

Without you ... 

In silence ... 

There is stillness .. 

time to think .. time to reflect ...

Time to be .. with one's self.. 

 

We live in such a noisy world sometimes we have to turn everything down or off just to know what's really there .. 

The beauty of it ... 

Ohh some days it's so beautiful to sit in complete silence and just be able to think .. 

and dream and imagine ... 

Reflect ... 

Life has so much depth if you find a way to understand it's layers.. 

Silence is so beautiful , especially after a long day full the wolrd constant noise , the people , the asking  the begging , the demanding ... 

Oh how i love the silence .. 

Its breathtaking 

Just try a lil silence...