Des Mafia Bouncer's blog: "poems"

The screaming and yelling

, name calling and pain,

where love once was , no longer your name,

you once filled my heart but not anymore

, no going back , done that before.

No smiles on my face that you put there each day

 just tears of anger and sorrow

, this way No kisses or hugs , just snide remarks i

f only you could see the scars on my heart.

What once you treasured, you threw it away

Not yours anymore , Im afraid to say

For my love , which you lost was found elsewhere

. And I love him too, this i can swear

the one who I love , brings back that smile

No anger or hatred just loving and kind

Who treats your treasure much better than you

and oh my dear if only you knew,

Our days are numbered , my sorrow no more

dont say good bye when i walk out the door,

I will take with me the ones that i love

To the man I know, shows me much love

For lost have you which you thought was yours,

no more tears or slamming door,no more trying , pain or fears

. Just alone with your peers,

Lets see how right your friends were now

What once was has gone for good ,

a new path I choose and I know i should

my heart in my hand i offer to you,

love it protect it the way i do you

treasure it always its all that i have

but i give it you and dont want it back

the more it is cared for the bigger it grows

dont ever stop loving who knows

what it shows I love you with

everything all that I am you

are my darling my love my man

does you heart miss a beat when you say my name out loud? butterflies in stomach when you return home each night

excitement in you loins at the thought of my touch

knee bucking effects when i casually trace your back

do you dream of me each night as in bed with you i lay

am i ur first thought in morning when you wake up and start your day.

do you wonder if ill be there old and at your side

do you wonder if with each mouthful do you enjoy the meal i make or the time i spend trying to make the house just right.

do u sit there staring at a phone waiting for it to ring

and does your heart pound like thunder at the though of loving me Am i here in your life cos you love me or cos fate threw you this curve..

you say u see wonder when in fact you see fear..

fear that you will reject me cos im not the woman you thought i was fear that im not good enough or maybe just that you have had enough.

you are not what i thought you were, in fact i cant complain you are far better than i hoped for and i hope you feel the same..

. by julie

i loved you unconditionally you were my life father to our children me your loving wife

and then one day out of the blue the news came that i could lose you

fear and panic,loss of hope world falling down

,tried not to choke Cancer was the dreaded word the man i loved just sat and stared

as the doctor told us then the end was close

not much hope determined to fight it as best we could

i stood beside you , hands held tight promising to win the fight

I watched you dying before my eyes

try always not to cry a shadow of the man you once were

eyes so empty almost not there.

then our luck it finally changed.

drs told us no more pain battle over

you had won excited that i had you back

the man i loved more than life

how very wrong, could never have guessed

this stranger stood before me yet

he looked like the man id loved for so long

instead i saw the angry eyes self destruction ,

something else bitter, angry,twisted still,

i miss the man you once were and

even now ill sit and stare see if he is even there

cancer effects in many ways,

some it takes others it changes

and if i see the man i loved,

its now too late for me to say i love you with all i am

cos cancer came and changed me too.

It took my heart away from you