Des Mafia Bouncer's blog: "poems"

i loved you unconditionally you were my life father to our children me your loving wife

and then one day out of the blue the news came that i could lose you

fear and panic,loss of hope world falling down

,tried not to choke Cancer was the dreaded word the man i loved just sat and stared

as the doctor told us then the end was close

not much hope determined to fight it as best we could

i stood beside you , hands held tight promising to win the fight

I watched you dying before my eyes

try always not to cry a shadow of the man you once were

eyes so empty almost not there.

then our luck it finally changed.

drs told us no more pain battle over

you had won excited that i had you back

the man i loved more than life

how very wrong, could never have guessed

this stranger stood before me yet

he looked like the man id loved for so long

instead i saw the angry eyes self destruction ,

something else bitter, angry,twisted still,

i miss the man you once were and

even now ill sit and stare see if he is even there

cancer effects in many ways,

some it takes others it changes

and if i see the man i loved,

its now too late for me to say i love you with all i am

cos cancer came and changed me too.

It took my heart away from you