If your a myspace dork...and follow my blogs it'll be pointless to read my LC blogs...cuz for awhile Im just goin to repost...blah blah...mwa mwa! Luv yall...missing most of yall....
Everyday. I approach life with an openness. Never afraid of meeting new people EXCEPT for the one that will own my heart. Now stop. Reread that statement. NEVER afraid of meeting NEW people.....EXCEPT....for the ONE....that will OWN my HEART......What does that say to you? How do you read that out loud and fully grasp those words...YOU DON'T...unless you are feeling the same. Unless you have felt the same. We have to share that common denominator for you to understand how strong that statement is....
With that fear overwhelming our hearts we may have overlooked that one that was meant to be...
With that fear I am held captive only to myself, with myself...
I have had the time to talk to a few of you in the last 24 hours...I have yet to reach out to some...but I'm hoping you will know how much I care about you and will realize this is also for you if I have not called you to converse...
In my habitual lifestyle, I have noticed a repetitive pattern...When I get close to someone. When I start to share myself with another. When I open my mind for someone to indulge in. When I talk of my desires, dreams...hopes. I immediately notice my vulnerablity and start to push away those I care most deeply for. Which could be you....When I begin to do so, too many let me slip away...but I am asking this only once...if you find yourself in that position, and if you care about me at all, will you just pull me in? when I push...will you hold on? It's time for me to find out who really counts....who really matters. What is fact and what is fiction...I do not intentionally tear myself away...It's a defense I have mastered...It's time to lose it.
IF I was or IF I have found that one to own my heart...their DOOM will be my defense...and I will or have possibly lost something that could have been....magic.
