Tick Tock. Tick Tock. Its Saturday. All I hear is the random squeals of a 4 year old doing what she knows she shouldnt, the obnoxiously loud noises coming from Jason, and some Disney movie playing its "im so happy to be alive music'. I continue to just sit and stare at this screen. Trying to push out any thought I may have thought today, I stumble online, surfing my random accounts and half assin my way thru random messages and bull shittin my replies back. Of course things are fine. Just wonderful. In fact, at this moment I am not sure there is really anything that could be better for me. This ever tightenin knot curls around my insides and starts to literally squeeze the air out of me. My only reasoning thought of why it is what it is...The only real solid explanation... LOVE. Its stupidly annoying when all you can think of is that other person and there are days when you really wish you could be selfish. Yet, love pulls you into this ackward position. All you do is totally for that other person. While maintainin my own image it seems I have solely become this woman whos life is lived for someone else. Eh. Can't explain to those who've never been there. But anyway. Here I am. This is what is currently puzzling my confusion. I am not complaining tho. I love Jason dearly. The fact that he has done and will continue to do for me and Rhondalynn is enough to keep me doing for him. Blah. Have a Great Day Peoples!
