LadyFaith's blog: "Living with ~LadyFaith~"

I'm going to vent right now, so if you don't want to hear about it, I will give you a few seconds to click off this blog.........

Ok, so life is becoming a bitch right now. Work kids and school are leaving me very little time for anything else. I was seeing this great guy for awhile, but now I'm not even sure we can consider ourselves dating anymore.I feel so damn alone because of this. It doesn't help that he "doesn't know what he wants" either. Which is his way of saying, "I know what I want, but it's not you." Now I know that I have alot that gord on in my life, and it's hard for men to understand just how close I am to my friends and family, so when something happens, I NEED to be there. If for nothing else than as moral support. He doesn't have that closeness with his family and friends like I do, so he doesn't understand why I take on so much.

Please don't get me wrong, I love my girls with all that I am, but trying to be there for them and still be me is not happeing anymore. In the last 3 weeks I've cooked them exactly 2 meals. My wonderful babysitters know more about their lives than I do!! My girls are wonderful kids. Sure I have to deal with the fighting and arguing between them, but they defend each other to others like there's no tomorrow. They are extremely perceptive to my moods and are always giving me hugs and showing me they love me. I couldn't ask for better kids, but it frustrates me that I can't do even the simple shit like cook them a meal anymore!

School!! OMG schoool is really pissing me off. This week I had 6 assignments to do. And since I was so damn tired this week, it took me 5 damn nights to just do my readings for the week, this ment that I was spending my saturday night knocking out 5 of them. I finally said fook it to the last one tonight so I can hopefully get some sleep. I know I only have a few more months left, but I'm not sure I'm going to make it. I'm beat and my school work is suffering because of it.

So there it is. For those who stuck with it, thanks. But if it didn't get out I woulda kicked someone. Hell, I still might.