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ok, so I'm not one who will normally share my family's business...but this one has me shaken and I'm jsut not sure how to wrap my head around it. My parents, who have been married for almost 29 years have a 50/50 chance of divorcing. I'm just not sure how to handle this. I mean, wow. And it's all over fucking money! They're going to throw away 29 years together over the almighty fucking dollar.

Now, the reasonable part of me knows that they will work this out. Hell, they've been through a whole hell of a lot worse. But the daughter sude of me wants to rail and scream and throw myself on the floor and have a hissy fit. There are my parents!!! It's one thing for my own marriage to fall apart, but something different when I look at their marriage, watched them for 28 years pull through so much.

I mean I pictured my own marriage after theirs. Yeah, they fought and argued, but they ALWAYS worked through it. I just don't know what to think and feel about all of this.

Anyone reading this....have you been in my place? As an adult had your parents divorce? Guidance would be awesome on this. Thanks!!

DIVORCE AGREEMENT

               

                  THIS IS INCREDIBLY WELL-WRITTEN AND IT IS HARD TO BELIEVE
IT'S BY A YOUNG PERSON...A STUDENT!!!  WHATEVER HE RUNS FOR, I'LL VOTE FOR
HIM...OUTSTANDING.

                  Dear American liberals, leftists, social progressives,
socialists, Marxists and Obama supporters, et al:
                   
                   We have stuck together since the late 1950's, but the whole
of this latest election process has made me realize that I want a divorce. I
know we tolerated each other for many years for the sake of future
generations, but sadly, this relationship has run its course.  Our two
ideological sides of  America  cannot and will not ever agree on what is
right so let's just end it on friendly terms. We can smile and chalk it up to
irreconcilable differences and go our own way.
                   
                  Here is a model separation agreement:
                   
                  Our two groups can equitably divide up the country by
landmass each taking a portion. That will be the difficult part, but I am
sure our two sides can come to a friendly agreement. After that, it should be
relatively easy! Our respective representatives can effortlessly divide other
assets since both sides have such distinct and disparate tastes.
                   
                  We don't like redistributive taxes so you can keep them. You
are welcome to the liberal judges and the ACLU. Since you hate guns and war,
we'll take our firearms, the cops, the NRA and the military. You can keep
Oprah, Michael Moore and Rosie O'Donnell (You are, however, responsible for
finding a bio-diesel vehicle big enough to move all three of them).
                   
                  We'll keep the capitalism, greedy corporations,
pharmaceutical companies, Wal-Mart and Wall Street. You can have your beloved
homeless, homeboys , hippies and illegal aliens. We'll keep the hot Alaskan
hockey moms, greedy CEO's and rednecks. We'll keep the Bibles and give you
NBC and  Hollywood .
                   
                  You can make nice with  Iran  and  Palestine  and we'll
retain the right to invade and hammer places that threaten us. You can have
the peaceniks and war protesters. When our allies or our way of life are
under assault, we'll help provide them security.
                   
                  We'll keep our Judeo-Christian values. You are welcome to
Islam, Scientology, Humanism and Shirley McClain. You can also have the U.N.,
but we will no longer be paying the bill.
                   
                  We'll keep the SUVs, pickup trucks and oversized luxury
cars. You can take every Subaru station wagon you can find.
                   
                  You can give everyone healthcare if you can find any
practicing doctors. We'll continue to believe healthcare is a luxury and not
a right. We'll keep The Battle Hymn of the Republic and the National Anthem.
I'm sure you'll be happy to substitute Imagine, I'd Like to Teach the World
to Sing, Kum Ba Ya or We Are the World.
                   
                  We'll practice trickle-down economics and you can give
trickle-up poverty your best shot. Since it often so offends you, we'll keep
our history, our name and our flag.
                   
                  Would you agree to this? If so, please pass it along to
other like-minded liberal and conservative patriots and if you do not agree,
just hit delete. In the spirit of friendly parting, I'll bet you ANWAR which
one of us will need whose help in 15 years..
                   
                   
                  Sincerely,
                   
                  John J. Wall
                   Law Student and an American
                   
                  P.S. Also, please take Barbara Streisand and Jane Fonda with you.

And The Fight Started
My wife sat down on the couch next to me as I was flipping channels. She
asked,
'What's on TV?'
I said, 'Dust.'

And then the fight started...

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My wife and I are watching "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire" while we were
in bed. I turned to her and said,
"Do you want to have sex?"
"No," she answered.
I then said, "Is that your final answer?" She didn't even look at me
this time, simply saying, "Yes." So I said, "Then I'd like to phone a
  friend."

And then the fight started....

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Saturday morning I got up early, quietly dressed, made my lunch, grabbed
the
dog, and slipped quietly into the garage. I hooked up the boat up to the
truck,
and proceeded to back out into a torrential downpour. The wind was
blowing 50
mph, so I pulled back into the garage, turned on the radio, and
discovered that
the weather would be bad all day.

I went back into the house, quietly undressed, and slipped back into
bed. I
cuddled up to my wife's back, now with a different anticipation, and
whispered, "The weather out there is terrible."
My loving wife of 10 years replied, "Can you believe my stupid husband
is
out fishing in that?"

And that's how the fight started....

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(LadyFaith's Personal Favorite!!)

I rear-ended a car this morning.
  So, there we were alongside the road and slowly the other driver
got out of his car. You know how sometimes you just get
soooo stressed and little things just seem funny? Yeah, well I couldn't
believe it.... He was a DWARF!!!

He stormed over to my car, looked up at me, and shouted, "I AM NOT
HAPPY!!!"

So, I looked down at him and said, "Well, then which one are you?"

And then the fight started.....

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My wife was hinting about what she wanted for our upcoming anniversary.
She
said, 'I want something shiny that goes from 0 to 150 in about 3
seconds.'

I bought her a scale.

And then the fight started...

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When I got home last night, my wife demanded that I take her someplace
expensive...
so, I took her to a gas station.

And then the fight started...

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After retiring, I went to the Social Security office to apply for Social
Security. The woman behind the counter asked me for my driver's licen se
to
verify my age. I looked in my pockets and realized I had left my wallet
at home.
I told the woman that I was very sorry, but I would have to go home and
come
back later.

The woman said, 'Unbutton your shirt'. So I opened my shirt revealing
my curly silver hair. She said, 'That silver hair on your chest is proof
enough for me' and she processed my Social Security application
When I got home, I excitedly told my wife about my experience at the
Social
Security office.

She said, 'You should have dropped your pants. You might have gotten
disability, too.'

And then the fight started...

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My wife and I were sitting at a table at my high school reunion, and I
kept
staring at a drunken lady swigging her drink as she sat alone at a
nearby table.


My wife asked, 'Do you know her?'

'Yes,' I sighed, 'She's my old girlfriend. I understand she took to
drinking right after
  we split up those many years ago, and I hear she hasn't been sober
since.'

'My God!' says my wife, 'who would think a person could go on
celebrating that long?'

And then the fight started...

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I took my wife to a restaurant. The waiter, for some reason, took my
order
first.
"I'll have the strip steak, mediu
m rare, please.."
He said, "Aren't you worried about the mad cow?"" Nah, she can order for
herself."

And then the fight
  started...

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A woman is standing nude, looking in the bedroom mirror. She is not
happy with what she sees and says to her husband, 'I feel horrible; I
look old, fat and ugly.
I really need you to pay me a compliment.'
The husband replies, 'Your eyesight's damn near perfect.'
And then the fight started......

Do it's not so much that I lead a double life per se, but that I have a life that I don't share for general knowledge. Part of this life is what I do in my own, or someone else's bedroom.

I've been a member of a site for adults about 2 1/2 years now. And while it's a great site for just getting someone for a short term thing, not the greatest site for anything long term. I'm at the point in my life now where I want long term.

No, not marriage, been there done that shit and I don't want anymore of that. But I also don't want a one night stand or even a fwb thing any more.

So I've spent the last 3 days with a very close friend of mine and all that we've accomplished in all our talking in those three days is that "he's not sure what he wants".  Now I may be blond, but I am by no means stupid. So when I hear a guy tell me this, it says to me "I know what I want, and it's not you. But your ok for an FWB thing".

Bleh!!!

I'm going to vent right now, so if you don't want to hear about it, I will give you a few seconds to click off this blog.........

Ok, so life is becoming a bitch right now. Work kids and school are leaving me very little time for anything else. I was seeing this great guy for awhile, but now I'm not even sure we can consider ourselves dating anymore.I feel so damn alone because of this. It doesn't help that he "doesn't know what he wants" either. Which is his way of saying, "I know what I want, but it's not you." Now I know that I have alot that gord on in my life, and it's hard for men to understand just how close I am to my friends and family, so when something happens, I NEED to be there. If for nothing else than as moral support. He doesn't have that closeness with his family and friends like I do, so he doesn't understand why I take on so much.

Please don't get me wrong, I love my girls with all that I am, but trying to be there for them and still be me is not happeing anymore. In the last 3 weeks I've cooked them exactly 2 meals. My wonderful babysitters know more about their lives than I do!! My girls are wonderful kids. Sure I have to deal with the fighting and arguing between them, but they defend each other to others like there's no tomorrow. They are extremely perceptive to my moods and are always giving me hugs and showing me they love me. I couldn't ask for better kids, but it frustrates me that I can't do even the simple shit like cook them a meal anymore!

School!! OMG schoool is really pissing me off. This week I had 6 assignments to do. And since I was so damn tired this week, it took me 5 damn nights to just do my readings for the week, this ment that I was spending my saturday night knocking out 5 of them. I finally said fook it to the last one tonight so I can hopefully get some sleep. I know I only have a few more months left, but I'm not sure I'm going to make it. I'm beat and my school work is suffering because of it.

So there it is. For those who stuck with it, thanks. But if it didn't get out I woulda kicked someone. Hell, I still might.

Look into my eyes
and tell me you don't care about me.
Look into my eyes
and tell me you don't care.
Look into my eyes
and tell me that the world isn't ours.
Look into my eyes
and tell me you would rather be somewhere else.


Look into my eyes
and lie to me.
Look into my eyes
and hold my hand.
Look into my eyes
and tell me this is all a dream.
Just look into my eyes.

So, I'm not much for blogging really. Don't feel you all need to know every little detail of my life. But figured I would post a little bit more about myself.

Let's see. I will soon be 28 years old. I'm a single mom of 2 beautiful little girls who are my entire world. They are 6 and 8 years old.

Currently single. Liking it that way really. Don't have much time for dating now a days anywho.

Currently working for a helpline call center. Gotta love being yelled at on a daily basis, right?

I'm also a full time student. Working on my AA in BA with a concentration in Healthcare Admin. Due to graduate in Novemeber of 2009. Only took me 10 years after graduating high school to get a college degree, but I'm doing it! Not sure if I want to continue on with schooling or not. Figure I will know by Novemeber what I want to do. Hopefully life will be fairly calm by then.

So there is a little about me. If you want to know anything else.....ask!!!

Till then....

~LadyFaith~