My mind is a tortue device.
I trap myself with my own thoughts and fears.
They keep me prisoner here in the dark .
I do not share my feelings easily, they have been suppressed too long .
I want to help others but I cannot help myself .
Thoughts of wanting to die, waiting for it, plannning for it over and over.
Wanting it's release.
I don't want to feel anymore.
I want to be released of love, hate, anger, fear, anxiety, guilt .
They have a hold on me , my true self .
Will I ever find someone who will dig deep, beyond all that and find who I really am ?
I want to have the eyes of a child for just one more day, to see things with hope again .
To be loved unconditionally, to have someone love me because of my faults, not in spite of them .
Do not pity me, I am speaking my truth for nobody to hear.
