KalmaKeres's blog: "My Thoughts, Feelings and Emotions."

love is unexplainable. you cant help who you love and you don't get a choice in the matter.. i don't think it makes a difference of whether two people truly know each other or have seen each other in person or not.. love is love. everyone comes into your life for a reason there are no coincidences or mistakes.. whether it be to teach you a lesson, help you along the way, show you the light of things, try to bring you down or whatever the case may be.. there is ALWAYS  reason someone pops up in ur life.. love happens when you least expect it and sometimes with people you would never expect.. love is felt deep down in your heart. its not something you can touch or see. its not something for you to figure out because you never will. love is unconditional, it is putting others before yourself, it is thinking about the other persons happiness more than your own, its those unexplainable feelings you get when you see someone, its those instances where you feel like ur going crazy over someone and you cant begin to fathom why... love is worrying about them rather than yourself, which means even when you feel your world is caving in on you, you still just want them happy and want to help them through their bullshit and say fuck your own.. it is putting your pride and ego to the side for them everytime, it is holding them higher than you hold yourself. love is when you have someone on your mind no matter what you try to do. it is wishing they could be with you in every moment. it is accepting them completely with no restrictions or stipulations on anything. love is being by their side and having their back regardless of whether you have met or not, regardless of how often you see each other or talk. love is when your heart smiles just from hearing their name. love is when you cant stand going more than a day if that without talking to them.  it is when you listen to a song and you instantly think of them. it is knowing your life would suck without them... it is when you cant stop thinking about them or get them out of your heart no matter how hard you try and if you cant get someone off your mind and out of your heart then they are probably supposed to be there.. LOVE HAS NO BOUNDARIES! it doesnt care if you are complete strangers or the best of friends.. finding true love is rare.. even rarer when they can truly love you fully and unconditionally...

First of all i dont use the word lightly. love is not meant to be understood and you sure as hell cant help who you love. i have had my heart ripped out of my chest more times than i can count whether it be by friends, family or significant other but i still continuously wear my heart on my sleeve and go into every situation with an open heart and mind. when i love i love deep passionately and whole heartedly. I hold them above myself time and time again. i make sure they are taken care of before i am. i go out of my way to help if i can and i do as much as i can to make them feel wanted and needed. i try my best to let them know they are my heart. i dont lie to anyone and i have even given my home and the shirt off my back to people i have loved and cared about because they needed it more than i did. thats just who i am and thats because i know what its like to have absolutely nothing and absolutely no one to care or listen to your problems or even try to hold your head above water if you cant on your own. love is exactly that putting others needs and happiness above your own. you dont kick someone you love when they are down instead you try to help them back up. love isnt an emotion you can just flip on and off like a switch. its not a feeling that goes away over night. if it does then it was never truly there to begin with. especially if its your significant other because your other half should be just that. your other half. your moon and stars at night and your sun during the day. your best friend. the one who has your back more than anyone and is willing to fight tooth and nail to keep the relationship alive and the flame going. love takes both sides to be patient and understanding not just one side. love takes both sides to compromise and meet in the middle. it takes equal effort. love is letting each other into the very darkest depths of your soul and being able to accept each other 100% for all of your demons and flaws. you dont get with someone to change who they are as a person. you get with them because you like who they are as a person and they compliment your life. if you try to change who they are then why even be with them? if you arent going to even begin to try and understand them as a person as a whole and accept them for who they are flaws and all then how can you say you love them? and what are you truly helping if all you can do is point out their flaws or their mistakes. if you can wallk away from them for the most menial fucking things then how can you honestly say they matter to you and you love them? love isnt always perfect but niether is anyone on this earth. so if you have each other to unpack all the baggage and sort through it plus get through the day and help each other through all the ups and downs then thats all that matters. regardless of whatever trials and tribulations you guys go through day to day, if at the end of the day you still want nothing more than to hold each other and lay down together and fall asleep then thats whats fucking matters.. everything else is simply water under the bridge or brush in ur path. if you truly love your loved one and regardless of what it was that you did to hurt their feelings and they still only want you and want nothing more than to be with you and hold you then you should hold onto that because its very rare you actually come across people who will love you whole heartedly and unconditionally.

a very wise and true friend that is dear to my heart told me this:: 

[ "I love you" and "I promise" and "I'm here for you" seem to be easy words for people to say,  but when the chips are down, they're easily forgotten. That's something I know all too well.  It's all well and good to be there, basking in the light with someone, but if you're not willing to stand beside them in the darkness and help them fight the demons that plague them, what good are you? ]

and that is the truth entirely. people throw the word "love" around constantly and way too easily. its one thing to say it but it is entirely another to continuously show it day to day. if you truly love someone then you wouldn't leave no matter how hard the situation is. you can put your pride and ego to the side every mother fucking time for them. you take the good with the bad, the happy with the sad, and most of all the ugly with the beauty. you work through absolutely EVERYTHING together and you don't RUN AND SHUT THEM OUT just because you hit a fucking bump and don't know what to do. no, instead you do everything you can to make them feel wanted and needed. you show them the beauty in the world when all they can see is the ugliness, you help them see the positive over the negative, you become the light when all they can see is darkness, you become their strength when they have none, their smile when all they can do is frown, their shoulder when they can do is nothing but cry. you hold them up when they can't stand, you have their back especially when they aren't around. most of all and most importantly YOU LOVE THEM WHEN THEY CANT SEEM TO LOVE THEMSELVES AND YOU LOVE THEM UNCONDITIONALLY.

when you tell someone you love them and that you want EVERYTHING that comes with them then that means their baggage just as well. you are supposed to help each other unload all that baggage and build each other up not they carry your baggage and theirs and then you kick them when they are down. if you truly love someone then their happiness is more important to you than your own and you fight tooth and nail to keep your relationship alive. you go through all  the ups and downs together because in the end that what matters is over coming it as a unit as a whole and coming out even stronger and closer than before in the end.