Lesava's blog: "VENTING"

This "woman", and I use that term loosely, has caused so much upheaval in my brother's life, and by extension my mother's and my lives.  She has left him multiple times, fucked around on him, takes drugs regularly, getting drunk, and somehow, she gets away with it and they are BACK together, because she put the blame on someone else for her latest fuckup, stealing money out of my brother's bank accounts while they were going through a divorce.  She put it on her "new man" at the time, and he is getting charged with it.  She is getting away scot free, and my brother is taking her back.  She hurts him time and time again, he hurts, in extension Mom and I hurt.  And then she is back, and then she does it again, and again, and again.  I am just at a loss for words when it comes to the situation.  He has called off the divorce, which REALLY makes me upset.  My heart genuinely hurts because I know he will be hurt again and again.  

I'm beyond pissed with him, believe me.  He is too nice for his own good, something I am bad at as well.  At least I have learned how to be nice now, he is just being a pussy whipped little boy.

And now, they will be up here this Thursday for a week or two.  I'm SO not happy about this, and if I could, I would be taking a long vacation right now, or leaving permanently to get away from the whole situation.  When she is around, the toxicity level goes up to 11.  I can't handle it at all.  The empath in me absorbs it and I go completely nuts.  While he is up here, I will be taking him out without her, if possible (she can't let him do ANYTHING on his own, she is so fucking clingy), and TRY to explain to him what all of this is doing to Mom and I, and explain that he looks like a fucking moron taking her back over and over again. 

This is not going to be a good week, between their visit, Mom's medical procedure today, and the election tomorrow.  I will not be venting on politics till the election is over.  Then I will make one post about the results, and be done with that subject.

Please cherish any peace and love that you have in your life, not everyone has it, and those people can only dream of it until, by some miracle, it MIGHT happen to them.