Midnight Rose's blog: "MY PARENTS"

I forgive, but can never forget. Mom and dad, I feel so sad, you made me feel bad. Mom and dad, I am so sad, you broke my heart, Why do we have to be so far apart. I did what i felt was right, now you are out of sight. You have seen me fall, but you never heard me call. I got up again on my own. I am strong, You were so wrong. I could never have walked, like you walked away. I am not going to stay. I have so much to say, but really would it matter. the way i feel, Is for real. I am ready now, although it will be without you mom and dad. I am not sad. I can not go back. This is the end, That was just a bend, In the road I had choose. There is no more, I close the door for good, this time. So mom and dad, i hope you feel bad, for making me sad. I forgive you, but I will never forget. Goodbye.

As I walk away I know everything will be okay. There is so much left to say. but why stay. To have my heart broke, i just cant live like this. Walking away, I can not stay. As i look out into the night sky, I can now say goodbye, with a sigh. Walking away I close the door, there is no more. I am who I am, You can not change me I am who I want to be. Mom and dad, I feel so sad, I needed you and you were not there, My feelings with you I could not share. You turned your back, The road I choose, The road I walked There is no second chances. I forgive you, but will never forget. Walking away, Got changes that need to be made, someday the memories will fade, But i must go on. The new doors are waiting. I must say goodbye now, Although this is hard, I must play the cards right. Now that you are out of sight, i can now be the person that I have always wanted to be, and that is me. Walking away, I know i can not stay, there is nothing left to say. Hear me when I call, I am not gonna fall. I am much stronger now. looking out into the night sky, mom and dad I now say goodbye. Walking away.

Does it really matter that you broke my heart Does it even matter anymore. You closed the book never even took one last look. Doesnt even matter that you threw your daughter away, without even saying goodbye. now i only cry. no use in continuing to try. you walked away. Does it even matter, that there are so many miles, no more smiles. no more laughter. The memories will slwoly fade. you tossed me out the door, pushed me to the floor. Now there is only a war going on inside my head. I want to close my eyes, tired of all the goodbyes. Does it even matter.

As I look for the last time, i cant seem to find the answers. I am lost, but what's the cost. The memories of the good times, along with the bad times. The tears the laughter and even after. As I look one last time at the pictures You wont give me another chance, I am in a trance. You took all the memories, and threw them away, now i really cant stay, the skies are so grey. the very last look that i took was of an emptiness, you called my name, but it wasnt the same. I cant erase the pain inside, you no longer stand by my side. I use to be your daughter, but now it doesnt matter. You threw me away. you closed the book, without another look. you started a war, but do you even know what for. To me it is all a waist, i cant fill in the space that you left behind. The tears continue to fall, i cant hear you call anymore. A knife rips at my heart, cause i know we will always be apart. I will always love you but cant forgive you You threw me out and then closed the door. i will never understand just why. So i say goodbye. I will miss you both.

You say you are Scarred, lost your guard, believe me this is hard. I have to say goodbye, Cant you see my pain, and these chains, that I try so hard to break. Cant you see my tears, as i run from my fears. I have to say goodbye, never meant to make you cry. i only wanted to try, and be the best i could be, but you could never see. As i hit the floor, the rain begins to pour, why do we close the door, cant we stop this war. what is this all for. I see the stars, but you dont see the scars. Now we are so far apart. I keep you in my heart, but I have to say goodbye. i am done crying, done trying, tired of all the lying, now i only feel like dying. I have to say goodbye, but still dont know why. I hearing you calling my name but it will never be the same, this isnt a game. I have to say goodbye, why did you make me cry, Why didnt you try. I miss it all so much. I wish i could see you even if it is just for alittle while, cant stand the miles. I have to say goodbye. wish i knew why. wish i could see you again. wish we could go back to where it all begain. The wind begins to blow, as i watch my children grow, without you, you made them so blue. I have to say goodbye, cant take no more, I have to close the door. If you only knew, but you dont have a clue. I have to say goodbye. I am going to miss you mom and dad. but I have to say goodbye.

Looking in the mirror, I see the person I was meant to be, but you just couldnt see. You were my hero, but to you I was a zero. Looking In the Mirror, I see my tears falling, can still hear you calling my name, but it isnt the same, to you it was all a game. Now it feels so strange. I am down on my knees, making one last plea, I know you cant see, all that I wanted to be. I stair out into the night sky, but i cant help but cry, just hearing the words goodbye. I feel the strain, cant stop the pain. This war inside my head, cant go to bed, I wish I were dead. As I cross the golden shore, Trying to reach the other side, if you only knew how much I have cried, I only tried to be the best I could, Looking in the mirror, I only wish you would have seen, that I was just a human being, As I close the door, I find myself on the floor, Is this for real, Is this how it is suppose to feel, dont know if i will ever heal. Looking in the mirror, I know what I wanted to be, but only wish you could see, all that I wanted to be. I keep wishing upon the same star, facing the same scars. Why is it so hard, I am really scarred I kept on trying, but now I just keep on crying. Was the tears all a waist I cant erase the memories, I dont want to face. I can never go back. Looking in the mirror I see who I was meant to be, You just couldnt see. Looking in the mirror. Goodbye Mom and Dad, You really make me feel sad, Looking in the mirror. I am going to miss you both.

This is the end, I took one more glance, cause I know there isnt another chance. I feel the pain, I wear the chains. I know I must close the door, even though my heart is tore. I cant stop the war. This is the end. Mom and Dad, I feel so sad, You were suppose to always be here, To wipe away the tears, to chase away my fears. I must go on alone now. This is the end, I tried to make things right, but now it is just one big fight. You made it clear, you don't want to hear, what i have to say, I couldn't stay. I need you mom and dad but i feel so bad. You were suppose to be love me, Never cared who I wanted to be, If you could only see. You were my hero, but you made feel like zero. This is the end, My heart is falling apart. I can still hear you calling, As my tears are falling. There is no turning back this time, I must continue to climb. this is the end. God knows i tried, just want to hide. I love you mom and dad, but I am so sad, because you don't love me anymore, This is the end. I am going to miss you mom and dad. Goodbye

I saw you smile one last time even though it was only for alittle while. I couldn't see through the miles, and now it seems I am trying to mend what seems to be the end. Cant ypou hear me calling, as my tears are falling. I just wanted you to be proud, never meant to cause a scar. I wish upon a star wish you werent so far. cant see through these tears, you're not here to chase away the fears. And i wish you were. Like the flowers you went away. nothing will ever be the same. I only tried I never lied. I saw you smile one last time even though it was only for alittle while what i would give to be your daughter and not a bother. what i would give for you to love me again. I love you mom and dad

Where were you Mom and dad? When I needed you the most. Why do you lie, and make me cry, when all I did was try. I was your daughter or was i just a bother. Where were you mom and dad, why do you make me feel so bad, I am so sad. Never meant to cause you any pain. I only tried to break the chains. didnt mean to cause any strain. Why do you say goodbye, was it me or was it who i wanted to be. Couldnt you see, did you not care, when i tried to share. It is so hard, I am so scarred. Where were you mom and dad. I want to die, i can only cry, i have to sigh cause you said goodbye. Where were mom and dad. I need you in my life. Cant you hear the tears that are falling cant you hear me calling out to you. Why did you walk away didnt mean to stray, i only want you to stay, i can only pray, for one last glance, for one more chance. Where were you mom and dad, I still need you. If i only knew. why do you break my heart, and why we are so far apart. Where were you mom and dad. why do I keep on trying when you keep me crying, and now i feel like dying. Where were you mom and dad, I feel so sad, you make me feel bad. And now I only wonder where were you. I love you mom and dad just wish you could see how much this hurts me. I wish you could see. I love you mom and dad just wish you could understand why i did what i did. I never meant to hurt anyone.

There is no end to the pain, cant break the chains, I feel the strain as it begins to rain. I feel in vain. Never wanted to say goodbye never meant to make you cry. Wanted it to last, but now it is all in the past. There is no end to the tears that keep falling but I keep calling. what I would give to have you back. Mom and dad, I feel so sad, why cant you be glad, why do you make me feel so bad. There is no end to the ache inside my heart. You walked away, why didnt you stay. Never meant to stray or cause you any pain. I only cry because, God knows i did try. I tried to be strong, I was so wrong. Tried to make right tried to stop the fight, but now you are out of sight. There is no end why cant we mend. I miss you mom and dad. Hope someday we can be together again. There is no end.