I was born when my mom was 39.Accident Baby.5 yrs prior she lost 1,doctors said she couldn't have kids.She didn't even know she was pregnant with me.She thought she had a Tumor.I was born C section,April 15,1957.I was very sick at 9 missed lots of school Hospitalize,fever 108,ice baths.pulled threw.My dad dies at age 10 3 days before christmas 1967,went in for Gallbadder surgery an had massive Heart attack.I was Devastated so was mom.Many nervous breakdowns.My grand parents mostly raised me.Around age 15 or so.My God Father started dateing mom.I hated him.Wined an dined her at all the exspensives restuarants.Prior to that she didn't drink niether did my Dad.He turn'd her into an Alcoholic,plus booze on top of her Valiaum's.She fell ended up Blood clots on her brain,was never the same after that.My friend Tony was on leave from Germany for my 18 th birthday,he took me out drinking,got wicked shit faced.Was sick as a Dog.My step father beat the shit out of me that night.So I cursed him,worthless piece of shit he was,couldn't even consomate marriage to my mom.To much booze + Meds couldn't get it up,thats another story.Couple nights after my drunken stuper when he beat me up.He sufferd massive Heart attack an Died.Mom sold my house 6 months later,she didn't need to sell it.he left her well off,Over $500,000 he left her,but he made her a stingy cunt.So off to North Carolina we went,to be with her Sisters an extended Familly.I started eating her valiams,I tried to get her to smoke pot.1 of my cousins was a cop.They put me in a Drug Rehab.2 x's there was enough for me.So I left went back to massachusetts.Went in the Service,blew out my r/knee came home,back to mass.Went back to school got into the drugs.in 1981 return'd to N.C. with my wife Laura an my Grandmother,to visit my mom.Visited her again in 1983.Last I saw of her we chatted on the phone a bit. but that was all.She is now passed on.I have many regrets in life an some of these regrets,still bother me today.At 49 time to clean up my act.What little time I have left.Will continue later.Thanks LC.Bit Cold today don't know if I'll catch the noone meeting maybe I'll blog here, instead.Peace
