My whole life, I have been told what I am, and what I will never be... For once I want something positive.... This real world is crashing around me, and no one has any words of encouragement to help me out of this abyss. A daughter. I once was.. to parents who never really seen me... a sister.... yes. sister. i am yet my siblings resent me. A love I have, almost 2 years now.... he too resents my existence. I seek amusement to settle my restless mind, yet it turns to dust before me..... Where? Where I ask, is there someone who knows directions to get me out of this world that is so real... :( dig me  outta this grave. Giv me lif again