I feel like no one cares at all these days i dont know what it is i ffeel vary alone and i guess thats how i am ment to feel ... i dont know
and i am listening to stuff i used to and thaink of old perfromances i did its weird its vary weird to remember b4 and wish it could be how it was and i guess i wilkl just have to find a way to feel that wya again .. i dont know
i feel let down by almost everyonme round me right now how there not really being by my side when i need it but i guess lessions leard its like
things iwth my family not good things with my relatioships not good i think the only friend of mine whos even here for me and lsitening is getting busdy do i am getting lonely but i glas she happy it makes me smile
my 21 bday is next week and i had b4 planned to go to vegas but due to my many trips taking too much time off and my bills i wont be going ... not only that but i dont think i will even go out
my aunt is b eing evil and she like segrating me from my fmaily
she is evil and evry9ine is scard of her so if she says be a bitch to sheila ppl r thats jsut how it is
and i guess its another bday no one will care about i havnt had a bday cake since i was 13 no one really cares about my bday i never even got a sweet 16 sighs .... so who says 21 will matter i cant even get my self a new out fit its depressing
