Since I had just oh, so much time on my hand, I had a lot to think about life. But I had summed up my thought as one thing: Life just gets in the way sometimes.
In life, we seem to just beat up ourselves because things didn't just turn out the way we have planned them to be or wish it it to be. We hope to do one thing, but instead it turns out to be the complete opposite of what we wanted it to turn out as.
Such as life in general. We all wish to be successful and be happy and find "ourselves". No one can cheat you out of unlimited success but yourself. But we kick our own asses if we don't get there as fast as we wish we could. we see others who are doing great and think "fuck, why can't I be like them?" then we highten up our expectations for ourselves which makes us feel worse. I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect life, the perfect parent, or the perfect job. But maybe the best that many of us can do is not quit and play the hand that life's dealt us, and accessorize what we've got. You have to try and think that time will take it's path where it needs us to go. For some it's faster than others, and that's alright. There is a place for everyone. All we can do is what we can. And if life gives you obstacles, you can't just give up or run away from it. You'll never learn from your mistakes, that's a given. You'll never get to 5 til you learn what 2+2 =. Count your blessings everyday. It could be worse. You could be starving in Africa with aids. If the past is haunting you, let it go. Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. And you shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because somebody has a problem with it. Maybe you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be. Can you get to your future if your past is present? Life is a struggle, if it weren't then it wouldn't be worth living. Everyone has their own battle. And when we finally get to where we need to be, it will be well worth the fight.
Second, are relationships (both romantic and platonic). I think people shouldn't get into one, entering it with high expectations. You can't think that everyone you meet is going to be "the one". Sometimes, people purely enter our lives just to teach us a lesson and help us become a better person and leave. But, if we're lucky enough they'll stay. That's all experiences are anyway right? Experiences. To learn for the better that's yet to come. And if doesn't work out for you and someone, it's alright. And if you have believed that it was meant to be- then it will be. And in order to love another, you must learn to first love yourself...as cliche as that may seem. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most challenging and significant relationship of all, is the one that you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you YOU love, well, then that's just fabulous !
Maybe our mistakes are what makes our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall inlove, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change, so do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's always comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart.
And there ya go. It's what was on my mind. The end. haha.
