DoctorJERMx's blog: "this is my brain on...line."

fcuk it! its my blog i'll write what i want haha.

im wondering how i tell doctors and others that i'd like to pull my own brain out at times?

i have experience in knowing when i have words like that its seen as suicidal or "depression"...whatever it is...its there.

i get drugs and a pat on the back for it.

a pat on the back pretty much a shove away from "being bothered".

same old thang so why not treat me as such?

im getting older and getting things together a bit more than before.

but...this "condition" i know isnt going away.

it disrupts my thinking, it disrupts relationships with people, it keeps me from being just a regular fcukin person.

i want to bitch about gas prices!

i want to talk about how shitty my pay is.

i want to have the CHOICE to fcuk up and not just be fcuked up by default.

who has the time to look past the catalog items?...me! haha

im a good guy..i might not have the regular things to give or show for.

but in that i can concentrate on everything else i have to offer.

too bad just being a caring passionate person isnt much these days without a modem.

hahaha

then again im...just writing