Well, here it goes again... I have met someone, yet again! lol. I really like this guy and it bothers me that I do. There's nothing wrong with him. But I know that there are a few things about him that I do not like. And there are a few things that people will point out... Here's some things about him. I know that this will make a few people mad, but I really don't give a shit. He's older than me, he's 47. He has children and grandchildren. Which his children are around my age and a little bit younger, the grandchildren are around my children's age. That doesn't bother me at all. We can see eye to eye, literaly... lol. I don't like the fact that he snores, has a hard ass bed, he dips and has the same name as one of my brothers that I don't like. He's a biker and a truck driver. He's a little taller than me. He's bald and has a long goatee. I can really get along with him. We really get along with one another despite the age differences and the other differences. We can see past those things. I have enjoyed spendign time with him and would love to spend more time with him. He's funny, he owns a bike and takes me riding, makes me feel special, has a hot tub, treats me good, can cook, and is very much a real gentleman. He respects me. He's good to me. honest, sweet. Pretty much the things that I have been looking for. But as with pretty much anything, there's a catch to all this wonderfulness. I don't think that he would want to get married again. I know that he doesn't want anymore children, which is fine with me, because i really don't either. i would like to spend more time with him and would like this to develop into something. but i'm really scared that i will fall in love with him or he will fall in love with me. you're probably wondering why that would be a bad thing or why i would be scared??? well, there are lots of reasons. the main thing that i can come up with right now is that i know that neither one of us wants to get hurt or be hurt. there's been enough of that in the lifetime that we have already spent. i really hope that this will work for us. as for you that might be mad at me for finding someone. i'm sorry. that's all i can say. i hope that you can be happy for me. i know that it would be more happiness for you if i would have been with you instead of who i choose to be with now. but it's somthing that came about and happened. i have enjoyed spending time with him. he makes me laugh, smile, makes me feel like i would want to feel all the time and that's happy! i do really enjoy his company. he's a great person to talk to. i'm going to go. i'll keep ya posted on what's going on, if anything. i do lead a boring life ya know??? lol By the way he's one of the guys that i talked about in the last blog on here. i have decided to go with him because i have had the chance to spend sometime with him. he is a really good guy and i have enjoyed spending the time that i have with him and i look forward to spending some more time with him. i'm not worried about the other ones. i can't do a whole lot of waiting on someone. that hurts to much and so many opportunties pass ya by. i'm not letting this one pass by me though! i'm going to hold on for as long as i can and as long as it takes! i hope that he feels the same way about me...
