Morganite's blog: "This is my life..."

This is a story about a toad and a very beautiful woman. Once upon a time... There was this toad that met this very lovely and intriging young lady. He never thought that he had a chance with something so beautiful. But he was wrong. Though he was a mere bitter toad, she helped to change him into a wonderful man with a beautiful heart. Moral of the story, you can't judge a book by it's cover. Though he may have been a toad and slightly ugly, he had a good heart. You may think that I'm pretty and such and out of your league. You will never know whether I am or not. So take a chance... I did...

Your sweetheart or spouse isn't telling you something that is bothering them or that they want to change. You may not be able to hear it directly, so read between the lines and do your best to get at it.

I am a single mother of 2 children. I am looking for someone to spend what little extra time that I have with. I'm sick of all the bull with trying to go out to meet people. Just looking for someone to treat me good, respect me, and will put that dang toilet seat down! lol. It would also be nice to bring me roses and possibly cook dinner at least once in a while... lol. I know that's pushing it, but at least the roses would be nice... lol. We're both adults here so why play games? Let's call a spade a spade. So man to woman, tell me what you think... I am a real woman and not a door mat for you. I have never been married. I'm not really sure what it is that I'm looking for. I have just about giving up hope that there is someone out there for me. So with that said... I figured that I would go with something like this... By chance... The next best thing happens to read this (ok, a great guy willing to treat me good and my children) (The best thing in life right now is my children, so he would have to be the NEXT best thing) Anywhoz, he(probably being you right now) reads this and thinks, "WOW! This is an attractive looking lady, who's got her priorities straight. She is trying to finish up school to get her degree in whatever field that she has choosen, that I will have to ask about... Because I'm that interested in knowing more about this wonderfully, appealing lady. Apparently she's doing the best she can, with being self employed (witnessing signings and prparing tax returns), going to school, working at the school, raising 2 precious wonders of the world all on her own. She must have a lot of drive and ambition. I think that she would be an awesome lady to get to know. But could I ever be so worthy of such a wonderful lady such as she. But I think that I will give this a try!" Hey, I can have some wishful thinking, can't I??? Thank you if you have read this far, if not... It's cool. I know there's plenty more fish in the sea... lol. I just want to be loved and be happy. I want to feel the love, happiness, and passion from my significant other, that is... If I ever find him... Maybe he's you??? Things that I like... I like for my dang toilet seat to be put back down after use. I don't want any users or abusers. Not interested in intimate encounters, married, or seperated people. Just want someone that I can connect with. Must be attractive to me, have a job, be respectable about my feelings and my children... Liars, cheats, abusers, drug addicts and/or users need NOT apply. IF YOU CAN'T SAY SOMETHING NICE, THEN DON'T SAY ANYTHING AT ALL AND DON'T BOTHER WITH TRYING TO TALK TO ME!

As I have matured... I've learned several things and thought that I would share them with ya'll. I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in... lol... (I really didn't learn that, but thought it was cute anyways...) I've learned taht no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes. This is a real deal one here... I'VE LEARNED THAT IT TAKES YEARS TO BUILD UP TRUST, AND IT ONLY TAKE SUSPICION, NOT PROOF, TO DESTROY IT. I know this one for a fact. I've had this to happen. To love someone with my heart and trust them, but they were always weary of me. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think. This is very true and I know some of these people too... lol. I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished... I know this one for a fact. I've been pregnant twice and have had many a hang overs.... I've learned that we are respnsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities. I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it. Yes, this is so very true... I've learned and know for a fact... that the people that you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never seem to go away. I have learned from my own personal experience that things in a relationship take time. I just hope that one day I can teach someone else how to love again. There is that possibility with time. I know that it can happen. Just believe.

Well it's been a while since I wrote the last blog... I think. I dunno. I really don't keep up. lol. So here's what's the story morning glory... This is what's been going on in MI VIDA LOCA! lol. Absolutely... NOTHING.... lol... Not really... There's been a few things going on. I have good grades in school! YAY~ go me~ go me~ I will be in the EMCC Beauty and Beau pageant next month. I will be graduating in Dec. I'll get my diploma and then the ceremony is in May. Brady is doing good, he just went to the Dr. today and has gained some weight!!! YAY! He's now at 47 lbs. He's 9 years old. Everything seemed to be good. He's doing good in school too. TK is doing good. She is enjoying going to school. I can't believe that, but it's true. I reckon that's not going to last a whole lot longer though... lol. Well you know the story about our lives, now I'm sure some of you are interested in what my love life status is??? I would also like to know... So if anyone knows... Please let me know??? Thank you! lol. Well... Actually I kinda met someone. I think.... lol. He seems to be really nice and sweet. I know, I am so scared and waiting for the other shoe to drop. But anyways, I did meet him off a dating web site... How funny is that?? TRUE STORY! But I'm so confused on what to do???? He lives about 2 hours south of me. He's gorgeous, HOT! Seems to be simply irresistible... but I dunno... I don't know if things could work with me and him though. He is way better looking than I am. There are so damn many women after him. Of course judging by the pics that he has posted... Yea, that's why there's so many. I can't compete with all that. He says one thing, but I'm not sure if I should believe. I dunno. It just seems harder every time, but yet easier in some ways. Having the feelings for someone is the hardest thing that there is. It's just easy to hide them and push people away. I suppose that's why I'm alone. I don't want to be hurt, but I do want to be loved and be happy. Just really hard when you've had your heart broken as many times as I have. But for some reason, I get back on that damn horse and go for another round. I guess each time I get thrown off and get a concussion, makes me that much more stupid for wanting more. I just hate to really get my hopes up about someone and then it gets all taken away. It's amazing that I get somewhat excited about someone and then go down hill. I don't' know what to do... That's why I turn to y'all! lol. But on the fo real though... He is a VERY handsome man. And I know, I should and deserve to have a man such as he. Those that have known me for quite some time know some of the things that I've been through. But anyways. We met today. It is always awkward when you first meet someone. I still can't believe that he came to see me where I was. OMG That was sooo crazy. But it was really sweet and nice. So, he might be a real winner after all. I know what my problem is. I think and hope I have found something, but then I wait for the other shoe to drop. But anyways... I reckon that I'll figure it out one day... Later.

If you've read any of the posted blogs and trying to figure out a couple of things about them???? You can go to www.myspace.com/hotmsdixie and read some there and yahoo's 360, hot_ms_dixie. But anyways. I reckon that you see that my life ain't all cherries and roses... lol. But I've had love a time or three. I hate loving someone but wanting something more than they are willing to give. Maybe I am greedy like that?? I dunno. I still love my ex. He's my best friend and I will always love him. So, if anyone happens to take an interest in me, he's a part of my life that I can't let go. He showed me more than anyone has ever shown me. He was my friend first and remained my friend after. Most guys don't do that. Besides that, when and if I do get married... He's going to be the one that brings me up on a Harley! lol. I reckon I'm a strange one, but it's going to be my day, and I'm going to be as orginal as possible. I don't like the whole every day thing and what's expected... Thank ya very much for taking the time to read this madness in mi vida loca! Ain't got nothing but love for ya baby!!! lol Later Mater...