angelbear's blog: "journal"

True pain is the fear of loosing your heart and soul and knowing if you do loose that you will never get them back. And true pain is when you revolve your entire being around someone you fall deeply and madly inlove with and knowing that you could loose them within a second. True pain is watching your entire family fall apart and not being able to save them. True pain is feeling your heart and soul break and knowing there isn't a damn thing you can do to fix it or stop it. True pain is wanting to runaway but staying because of the one you are inlove with. True pain is not being able to save your heart and soul from themselves. True pain is watching your star your light slowly dim and then go dark and knowing once that happens they will never be a star or light again. True pain is having thoughts in your head of violence hate and pain and not being able to stop it. True pain is fearing your thoughts coming true and controlling you. But the ultimate true pain is knowing that you could of prevented all of this by speaking up and standing up and because you didn't your world is now going to hell.